The need

To say what’s on your chest has been eating you up inside and tonight.

You finally said it and now you feel so happy and hopefully.

But you know life will throw a curve ball and all that seemed great may not always be that way.

But that doesn’t stop you for hoping things will change and work out this time.

For there are many combinations to solving and living the good way as there are only few for just living the safe away and tons of going down the path well traveled.

But now it’s time to finally step out and survive because change is necessary to go to the top.

Each door that is open will show you how to just trust your instinct and it will be true out just fine.

 

 

 

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Copyright ©️ 2020 By Deirdre Stokes

Will I

Ever be someone’s number 2 because I would hope they would put the lord before me.

For he leads and I will help on the side with carrying and helping get back up when you fall.

I will listen as you pour your soul and heart out to our lord.

I won’t be mad about being second because I know at the end we all win as long as we let him guide and protect us.

I hope today will be the start of something new and every day and night we grow closer.

But in the end let’s not be self centered and think only about ourselves because at the end of the day we aren’t completely in control.

We must be patient when things seem impossible because we know that’s what his all about.

So one day when you’re ready I will be there with you every step of the way.

Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Copyright ©️ 2020 By Deirdre Stokes

They want

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it to be all about the presents as the days get  closer and closer to Christmas this year but the truth is I don’t care for gifts this year. 

I don’t really have the desire for something big  or something small.

I just want to feel the joy and to enjoy the peace and quiet and just enjoy the time I have before things change again.

I know that I am more into the decorating parts and just living in the moment we’ll it last and not about how many gifts are under the tree.

I’ve seem to have out grown the gifts and simple if I need something I just get it unless the price is better doing black Friday but even then I don’t need to want until Christmas too have it.

A present is nice but I’m not worrying about it this year for I’ll watch a movie or the parade and drink some eggnog and call it a day for soon the new year will be coming around.

And yet again things will be different and noting will be the same again.

But I feel I will be okay with that in 2020 but until then I will do my best to fix my little bit left of 2019.

 

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Copyright ©️ 2019 By Deirdre Stokes

I bet

You thought you were clever today.

But it’s a shame you still don’t see what you’re doing.

It ain’t right but who am I to tell you what to do when everyone else is and yet the story hasn’t changed.

You want to do more and say you are doing the right thing and everyone else is trying to tear you down.

But the thing is we all know the truth and even if we shine some light on it for you.

We will be the bad guys and the cycle of you playing the victim continues on and on.

Until you choose to grow up and take responsibility for the things you did wrong and apologize for not knowing sooner what you had done.

But I know you will not ever change and it will always be someone else fault in the end.

Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Copyright ©️ 2019 By Deirdre Stokes

Tomorrow

Do I want to know what you will have waiting for me when I walk through those doors?

I don’t want to even walk up and deal with it.

I know I will have to battle myself through the easy stuff and just ignore the tough stuff altogether.

I know I already feel the wear and tear as today and this week will weaken me in more than one way.

Will I survival or will I just give up and quit and not worry about the outcome in the end.

I really wish this could be the end to my chapter in this place but it has yet to be written as I stand by looking on to a better future and hope for myself.

Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Copyright ©️ 2019 By Deirdre Stokes

Let’s make

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a wish that November will be better than October and that we will enjoy this month

for the year is truly almost over as December is coming up and then the hope things just keep going up for us is all we want.

Time is running out and we realize that no matter how hard we try we need to move quickly because the time to get it done is running out.

We have to have courage now because it’s time to take those risk and it’s time to just let everything fall to the side if it’s not what we have to get done now because this life is intense now and you don’t want to stress about what if’s when you can do it now.

No more complaining, it’s time to face everything with confidents that it will go in your favor because you have worked hard and sacrificed so much already.

So wish so hard that the only thing you will think about for now on will be that wish which will come true because it’s your time to shine now and forever as long as you believe in yourself again and again.

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Copyright ©️ 2019 By Deirdre Stokes

The weather

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is changing and soon it will be too cold for one to just dip their hand in the river for it will be frozen soon.

And being outside will be no fun but being inside watching as the season changes from fall to winter.

Wondering if I had truly wished for this kind of weather so soon.

Will it be hot again next week or will it stay cold for the rest of this fall.

I will not know until tomorrow and than the next day until one day the weather will just drop completely and you will wake with a sight of a frost and the sight of your breathe in the air and you will just know fall is no more.

 

 

 

 

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Copyright ©️ 2019 By Deirdre Stokes

This place

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 So beautiful and peaceful that can’t stop coming back to it.

I know now the ugly things don’t matter when I’m here in this place.

It’s like nothing can touch me even when I know all I want to do is run and scream like I’m in a horror movie.

And of course I will run towards the very people hunting me for they too will play as if they are the victims.

Until they turn on me and then as the light fades from my eyes this place will come to my mind and I will be okay with it being my time to go.

Oh how I wish this place wasn’t just in my dreams but where my reality went to be happy and where my soul could have some peace for once.

Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Copyright ©️ 2019 By Deirdre Stokes

Sometimes

 

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 It’s not about the storm and how much it is coming down.

But, about the rainbow that comes after it.

For all the anger or frustration before the storm is clearly wiped away when you realize all you want to do is smile.

Now that your looking at such a beautiful rainbow.

That your pain for the days are ruin anyway and now you can explore something else.

Learn something new and very just not give up in the end for you know there is light to every darkness.

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Copyright ©️ 2019 By Deirdre Stokes