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I don’t

know how to play it cool when it comes to you.

I try my best to not let things bother me when it comes to you.

But, I find it hard to just let things be when you’re so important to me that just letting things fade away.

Truly is saddening to me and yet that is how things are now.

I used to try harder to get your attention but, now I’m too tired to put in the effort I used to.

So here I stand watching what was once one of my favorite things to do just fade away like another day on this earth.

I know that I won’t forget you but, I can’t say the same for you.

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes

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His queen

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I never thought one day I’d be someone’s queen and smile so brightly 

for this day is the best day of my life. 

To dress up in the most precious gown to me and feel so amazing that simple words can’t explain how I felt that day. 

You looked at me with so much love that I didn’t think I could receive and keep inside of me when times get tough and I need so badly to cling to that love. 

I know that you love me and that this picture will always be one of your favorites and I hope one day to capture one of me looking at you as you smile so brightly. 

 

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes

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You

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always believed in me when I didn’t even know what I really wanted out of life. 

You always brought me out my shell and letting be have my moment when I was too shy to face anyone other than you. 

You took me past my limits I placed for myself so that I would always be safe, you kick those limits out of the way and showed there was so much to live for that being scared wouldn’t get me anywhere in life. 

You made me know that being shy wasn’t a bad thing and everyone has to warm up to people and then and only then will they be comfortable to put themselves out there. 

This shy sweet smile is for you for you fought so hard to brighten up my life and now I can at least smile for you and myself today. 

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes

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Journey

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I don’t know how I feel about this journey I am on right now

I’m always mad and miserable no matter how I try to look on the bright side of things.

Because right now everything seems like it is out of my hand and there is not much I can control.

I want to scream and stop caring so much because even when I care nothing gets done and I’m left cleaning up a mess that wasn’t made by me.

I take the angry words being spit at me even though I didn’t cause the problem, how much longer do I wait for things to become better.

Is better things coming my way or am I cursed to live this life with no hope or light to guide my way in this place.

Outside the place that haunts me day and night, I sometimes have moments were I feel so alive and free.

But, in that place of darkness the sweet and kind me turns so salty and angry and I don’t want to make excuses but telling the truth isn’t really an option.

I count the days when my freedom will become permanent and not just temporary for two to three days.

 

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes

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Daily Prompt: Juxtapose

I think about the things that are happening now and even though I don’t want to deal with most of the mess that is happening around me right now.

I know if I compare where my life is right now to what it was before I know I’d probably pick now.

I know that things are getting crazy but, there are little blessing here and there that make me strong enough to continue on this journey called my life.

I know if I compare who I was back than to who I am today I’d probably shake my head and tell that girl she deserves so much more than what she is being offered and to know that her worth is more than just how much money she is making.

 

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes

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Daily Prompt: Disappear

Sometimes I wish these nasty people would let their nasty attitudes disappear and would for once realize everyone is human.

But, I realize that well this is a wish that possibly not going to happen because to these people I am nothing but a servant to them and without them I have nothing.

I am not worth respecting and they can be as nasty and wrong because it is my job to serve and please them.

If only the tables were turn and they were in my shoes and dealing with the crap that I go through, would they be able to get through it?

I bet they won’t because if they react the way they do now and tell everyone their sad story which isn’t that sad.

They wouldn’t last a day in my shoes and I would gladly take their shoes and probably go around being nicer to people for we all have a story.

Maybe you don’t want to hear mine and yet I already know yours and yet out of respect and being a decent human being I listen and show sympathy now and then.

I could disappear and I’m sure you would be happy not to see my face but, the things you complain about will still be there with or without me.

So for now I will disappear and accept that with me gone maybe you will be happy but, it’s not me that you have to answer to at the end of the day.

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes

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Just

when I thought things were starting to look up

the storm hits hard and I just can’t stand up to this anymore.

I fall short and the answers just don’t show up in time for me

and I know things will come to play but life right now just don’t seem so real

when you are getting  up but the force knocks you down just for someone to blame you when things are not going their way.

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes

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