Things have

Change and you

Realize the things that used to bother you

don’t anymore.

At least not in the way they did before.

It’s like they don’t stick to you anymore and so they don’t ruin your mood.

Or your day or week or month.

They just coexist with you

And maybe they get solved and you move on?

Or they just keep floating along forgotten this whole time.

But your story keeps going and the growth in your faith and your lifestyle.

Keeps expanding until doubt and insecurity no longer hold you back.

Your path is clear and your mind and heart

are open to so many more possibilities.

Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Copyright ©️ 2020 By Deirdre Stokes


Oh how

You are always on my mind and always in my heart.

You are my guide through this all.

And lately I haven’t been my best and yet you have stayed by my side.

For you are my God and through it all I truly know I can overcome it all.

Especially when I am a mess and nothing seems to make sense but when I let go.

And wake up the next day you always deliver just what I need.

And for that I am so grateful and I know through the struggles.

You will be there and I accept the hard times because when it’s easy it always feels like something missing.

The struggle make somethings so clear and true.

And for that I am thankful and light right now as nothing holds me back.

Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Copyright ©️ 2020 By Deirdre Stokes


You are

the only one I can’t seem to shake

The only one I can’t see doing anything mean.

The one who does good and stays focus on the things that matter.

And maybe I’m not used to that because I’ve let myself get distracted by everything that is not right.

And now I don’t know what to do with you because I’ve never been in this situation before.

For your different and your full of light and the darkness isn’t something that seems to be gaining on you.

And lately I’ve felt so angry and well the darkness has swallowed me whole and thinking of you.

Has slowly but surely brought me out and today I will do better for me and you.

Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Copyright ©️ 2020 By Deirdre Stokes


I’m not

the light you were looking for because

I destroy and make things more complicated then it has to be.

And here I am fighting no one but my own demons as the world seems to be trying to survive something that is always changing.

We try to stay positive but that can all change each day but in the end of some articles are hope as someone survives the virus and the path seemed so impossible but we know he can do all things and that includes the impossible.

I know this is trying times and there will be darker days than lighter ones but there will be an end for there always is one and when we come out nothing will be the same but we will be smarter and safer in all that we do for we are never alone.

And it’s time to change the way we enjoy things and just realize that the things we thought were in is well out now and being alive and healthy should be enough.

For being bored is just another way to complain about what nothing for others don’t have the chance to be bored for worry is more on their mind and as much as we all wish this was a dream.

It’s a wake up call everyday and night and maybe one day we will realize and know all there is to this moment, this memory that will always be with us and that we lived through something we never imagined could happen to us now or ever.

Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Copyright ©️ 2020 By Deirdre Stokes


I won’t

Start looking for you for you are meant to find me.

I won’t start making a list about you for you are to come to me as you are and all that you are will be enough.

I will be full of words that will express how you make me feel but I won’t come on too strong.

I know once we are one it will be hard and impossible to break us apart.

For if we are meant to be it will last and through every storm and celebration we will grow and learn. 

 For I won’t stop hoping you will come to me soon and shake up my very quite life again.



Written By: Deirdre Stokes

Copyright ©️ 2020 By Deirdre Stokes


I know

 Not of what awaits me today.

As it seems there are challenges that keep popping up and yet I seem hopeful.

That I will get through it all even when I know the struggle is far from being over.

My hopes to get ahead or even break even just isn’t in the cards for me.

And so I just face everything for what it is and keep moving through life as if this pace won’t always be how I’m walking on my journey.





Written By: Deirdre Stokes

Copyright ©️ 2020 By Deirdre Stokes


Maybe I’ve

 Been fooling myself as I work hard to keep

this friendship going.

Maybe if I let it go if it was meant to be it will work out.

For this doubt and trying to figure out what to say is just not working and I feel like something needs to be said.

But, I don’t know how you will take it and so I sit here erasing more than hitting the send button.

Maybe it’s too late and now I wonder how to be me and yet still want what everyone else has.

I know being by myself sometimes is nice and so I get lost in my own world and every now and then.

I come out and check on everyone else and then I wonder if I had just been outgoing the whole time would this doubt be bothering me now.



Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Copyright ©️ 2020 By Deirdre Stokes



To find my way on this path even if it is a early one.

I know everyone is just waking up and here I’ve been for sometime and still I don’t feel ready.

But, here I am trying to get a move on it when all I want is to be warm.

And far from walking out the door and going anywhere but her just doesn’t sit well with me

So much to do and yet I’m sill watching the clock as if I don’t know the time or where I have to go this morning.

Maybe I just want the day to end so I can go home but not because I don’t like the place I just rather be in my home all relax and ready for food and sleep.


Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Copyright ©️ 2020 By Deirdre Stokes


Was I

to tired to see your true colors all this time.

You may be small but I can feel the many knifes your trying to throw my way.

No respect just  trying to take and take.

You want so much but right now it’s really just a struggle to get it all down in the end.

Things are becoming more clear as the problems that raise up are not mine anymore.

The peace even within the Storm is better than the storm that just doesn’t go away for good.

No direction and no hope inside for the one who could and should help won’t step up unless they have too and in the end it all comes down to the same results.

You want to complain about the ones who came before you because you think so highly of yourself but at the end of the day we carry you not the other way around.

When the mess hits the fan it is mostly because of you and you then fight back as if you have the right too.

This circle will come to an end and right now I don’t care to watch the show for I know how it ends.




Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Copyright ©️ 2020 By Deirdre Stokes