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in life, you don’t know if your right side up or upside down.

And when you try to find some balance in your life.

Something somehow shifts before your eye and throws you for a curve and before you can get back up they knock you right back down.

And nothing you say or do is working out for you at this point because they chose to knock you down instead of helping you up at the end of your struggle.

You have done so much and right when you choose to move on and do better for yourself they throw you under the bus and expect you to smile and still help out with no worries in sight.

You feel that the pull is becoming too much and you know there is no way you will along this to go on and so you stand your guard and fight the good fight.

Until just come out with what they are planning to do which we all know doesn’t sound like someone who has your back at this point.


Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Copyright ©️ 2020 By Deirdre Stokes


Yes it

is another day in this place

is it going to be great I doubt it.

But here I stand trying to make things right.

I know that I’m doing what I need to do because I have always put others first.

But as the new year quickly approaches I’m really gonna focus on myself and worry about others later when I have accomplish what I want to accomplish in my life for the time I need to get it done is not guaranteed for me.

I know right now I am here and in this moment I am focusing on what makes me, me and worrying about everything else later.

For a time for rest is now for I’ve been busy lately trying to forget and to get lost in almost everything so I don’t have to face the truth that’s been eating me up inside for quite some time now.

Maybe one day I’ll let it all out but for now only a little at a time will I cry and scream for the release I truly need to be at peace with myself.



Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Copyright ©️ 2019 By Deirdre Stokes


I’m Done

trying to be more for you and less for me.

I’m done putting you first and letting myself go

for I am just as important or even more.

At the end of the day I know who I am and what I  am capable of, but do you?

I know that life is short and it’s my time to do new things and see new people

for being stuck in this little box where I let in some people here and there is not enough for me anymore.

I know that sometimes things have been difficult and the struggle has and will be still there but, those moments when you can stop  and smile and appreciate the things that are going right are what I live for.

And the reason I haven’t given up and thrown in the towel already, for I know there has to balance and sometimes the dark out weights the light for maybe a moment too long.

But the light always wakes you up in the morning and the dark runs along for what you dont see yet will come out and the outcome will be good and maybe possibly great too.




Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Copyright ©️ 2019 By Deirdre Stokes


I want

to leave for I know what I need and right now it’s not being here.

In a place that seems to crush my dreams and hopes more than help them grow more.

So I need to get away from all that I know and just face the present  with a smile on my face and to look forward to things that are coming my way.

For I know this isn’t all there is for me even though lately I truly don’t know where I fit but I know it’s not here anymore.

I know my talent would best served some where else for I have a lot to give and helping is what I love to do.

To know that I have just given someone a little slice of a good moment of their day just brings a smile to my face.

I know that sometimes I can be so frustrated and disappointed because of things I can’t seem to control but I know I will push through it and in the end I know I win.

For I will keep my head up and I won’t let the things that are so negative get me down because I want to stay in this bubble of positive feelings that just carry me through the darkness moments and seems to keep the bullshit at bay.

I know the day will come when I will have to truly shut down to avoid the things that want to drag you into their hell for who doesn’t like company when their miserable and angry at the world.

I  will be the light to guide you out for I know how much damage the darkness can do if you entertain it way too long.


Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Copyright ©️ 2019 By Deirdre Stokes




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We out shine the darkness around us

even on the hottest days when we can’t seem to cool off.

The days when everything feels against us and we don’t know who is standing by us anymore.

The words said by the people we trusted aren’t as true as they used to be.

Standing on the outside looking in is how we feel sometimes but we know the light will outshine the darkness in the end.

We know together our light is the way for us and  together we will stay strong and loyal.


Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Copyright ©️ 2015 By Deirdre Stokes







To enjoy every little moment my way

Without anyone’s opinion.

For the time I have to enjoy it may not come again.

So I want to do it right for me and everyone else can figure out on their own.


Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Copyright ©️ 2015 By Deirdre Stokes


Is this


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all I need to do.

To make things right.

Smile more and life struggles will just fall away.

Smile more and you will see another day.

Smile more and your problems will seriously be last stressful or not as urgent as before.

I wish it was that simple because then I would definitely smile more.



Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Copyright ©️ 2015 By Deirdre Stokes




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said taking some time off would help me find myself and find out what I truly need to do.

But, right now I do feel at peace but the ache of knowing that I am going back in a couple of days makes me want to stay forever for there was nothing but great momenta.

I know the moment I have to get my head back in the game of stress everything will change.

Some want me to speak up but for the first time, I’m just so over it that I just keep my concerns to myself.

I know this day looking out at all the possibilities I can still do.

I won’t give up just because someone keeps pushing me down for they seem to think they know everything.

But, the truth is the problem is still there and there is no hope of it changing. But I can continue to grow and end up outlasting the problem in the end.


Written By: Deirdre Stokes




we just talk about the things that causing so much frustration around here lately.

Lets help solve this situation and then let go of all the things that should never have been brought in this place in the first place.

Let’s start to use our minds and hearts when it comes to the things that is happening around us right now.

We’re all just holding on by a rope right now and when I look around I only see one hand holding on and their all looking else where.

I think I’ve always known we would all go separate ways and even though I know when that moment comes it will be bitter-sweet for us all but, I know that we will stay close and connected.

For this bond that we’ve made is good and strong and right now we are all the support we got right now.

Together we can overcome so much but, we are only human and we do get tired at times and the fight to get back up is becoming so much harder to do.


Written By: Deirdre Stokes