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No

 Complaints as the life on the other side is greener than before.

I don’t regret leaving because of the risk for the first time is worth it.

Maybe I have become stronger and so the things that used to scare me off from taking that leap.

Is now far from my mind as I make my next move.

And I know that I will be just fine as I make a move that will change me for the better.

I know that things will become more clearer as I learn so much more.

I feel the excitement running through me as the days start to add up and the count down begins.

It’s time to enjoy this moment of rest and know things will turn out as long as I have faith gods plan for me and faith that whatever happens is better than if I planned it myself.

 

 

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Copyright ©️ 2020 By Deirdre Stokes

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Oh how

 My heart ache as a old chapter of my life comes to an end.

And a new one begins my nerves are shoot and I feel like a kid on the first day of school.

Excited to see old faces but hoping to see new ones too.

Trying to hold it together as everything that is happening is only a day away.

And yet nothing is going as plan and you feel your procrastination is catching up to you.

And for the first time you don’t want to fuck things up for you want to improve things not ruin them.

 

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Copyright ©️ 2020 By Deirdre Stokes

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Tonight lets

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 Celebrate the new changes that are coming our way.

With something sweet and drink something that will comment it.

For it’s time to embrace the change and look forward to it for once for this is my time to shine.

No more thinking too much about things I can’t control or wishing someone would see what I see.

Maybe than they would know it’s not just what’s going on around them but some what their doing too.

 

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Copyright ©️ 2020 By Deirdre Stokes

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So much

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 Going on around us but yet all we do is get lost in our phones.

It’s easier to be focus on what’s happening in our little squares then deal with meeting someone new.

But, maybe it’s easier to have one less person in our life when life seems too complicated.

Staying close isn’t your thing and even if you try to fight your instinct it always wins out.

Quite time alone and everything is peaceful before another round of noise hits your way.

You begin to wonder if just jumping into the noise would be better for you at this point.

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Copyright ©️ 2020 By Deirdre Stokes

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Yes it

is another day in this place

is it going to be great I doubt it.

But here I stand trying to make things right.

I know that I’m doing what I need to do because I have always put others first.

But as the new year quickly approaches I’m really gonna focus on myself and worry about others later when I have accomplish what I want to accomplish in my life for the time I need to get it done is not guaranteed for me.

I know right now I am here and in this moment I am focusing on what makes me, me and worrying about everything else later.

For a time for rest is now for I’ve been busy lately trying to forget and to get lost in almost everything so I don’t have to face the truth that’s been eating me up inside for quite some time now.

Maybe one day I’ll let it all out but for now only a little at a time will I cry and scream for the release I truly need to be at peace with myself.

 

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Copyright ©️ 2019 By Deirdre Stokes

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I need

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these little moments when it’s just me and I can sit and appreciate all the moments you have blessed me and have allowed me to see another day.

I sit here with a smile on my face in hope that things will continue to get better for me because I am not the one to continue down this path where I allow others too much control of my life.

I am ready to gain more strength and patience to get through this storm I’m about to walk into for not the first time but it’s been awhile.

I know that I can face anything with you God so help me to keep my mouth shut when I have nothing nice to say and to hold me back when people try me.

Allow me to pause before I jump into anything these days for I know you will guide me the right way and that it’s time for me to do what needs to be done before my time is up.

 

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Copyright ©️ 2019 By Deirdre Stokes

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Have I

 Let so much time past me by that

Even I don’t know what my dream truly is anymore.

Or have I let others control what I should be doing overcome what I need to be doing for the lord.

And not for my own greed or attention.

Am I saying what should be said or am I dealing with more than I should at this point.

Life seems to becoming more of a story I wish I could jump out and not join again in hope to find a story that I truly fit into.

 

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Copyright ©️ 2019 By Deirdre Stokes

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Am I

 To pause because of you

Or am I to move forward because of me.

So much is going to change and I’m looking forward to new beginnings.

I know that as the year ends the lord has guided me away from things I thought I needed and towards things that will teach me something new.

It’s time for me to not settle for the path that feels safe because I know what I am doing and everyone appreciates what I have done so far.

It’s time for my light to shine somewhere else because it’s ready to shine for more than me.

 

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Copyright ©️ 2019 By Deirdre Stokes

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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You try

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with all your might to take my light away from me but I won’t break because you’re unhappy with yourself.

 I know this situation isn’t ideal but does that give you the right to run your mouth at the moment when we are helping you.

Or turn on us because your patients are shoot but if I was the one to take my frustration out on you it would be a problem.

But, I know you’re not worth fighting or concerning my time with.

I’ll stay true to myself and move on from your behavior which is not acceptable but who am I to judge you now or later.

I am who I am and you will always be you but I choose not to be on your level for God would want me to do better and be the bigger person even when you push me too far.

 

 

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Copyright ©️ 2019 By Deirdre Stokes