Was I

to tired to see your true colors all this time.

You may be small but I can feel the many knifes your trying to throw my way.

No respect just  trying to take and take.

You want so much but right now it’s really just a struggle to get it all down in the end.

Things are becoming more clear as the problems that raise up are not mine anymore.

The peace even within the Storm is better than the storm that just doesn’t go away for good.

No direction and no hope inside for the one who could and should help won’t step up unless they have too and in the end it all comes down to the same results.

You want to complain about the ones who came before you because you think so highly of yourself but at the end of the day we carry you not the other way around.

When the mess hits the fan it is mostly because of you and you then fight back as if you have the right too.

This circle will come to an end and right now I don’t care to watch the show for I know how it ends.

 

 

 

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Copyright ©️ 2020 By Deirdre Stokes

To think

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of warmer days and to feel the warm always on me.

So cold outside and inside is making these days very hard.

As I grow cold very quickly and time doesn’t go by as fast as I would like.

I know warmer days are coming and I am really looking forward to so much more.

Today is cold now but soon it will warm up and nothing will be in my way as I begin to explore what this world has to offer me again.

 

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Copyright ©️ 2020 By Deirdre Stokes

So many

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changes are happening around me

and when I make a move so many other people are making it too.

To see a face that is so formal who is on a new journey like I am is so thrilling and good.

I know that there  will be bumps and set backs to come but to go on no matter how hard they push back will not set me back for I know.

Through it all I will see the light at the end of this path for I know this journey will be different than all the ones I have taken before.

I can see that this outcome will be more than I could have imagined  at the end of the day, week, month and  year.

For I trust and believe all things are possible if I just believe and trust that these good things that have happen will not stop now but will continue even when my doubt becomes too strong.

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Copyright ©️ 2020 By Deirdre Stokes

The need

To say what’s on your chest has been eating you up inside and tonight.

You finally said it and now you feel so happy and hopefully.

But you know life will throw a curve ball and all that seemed great may not always be that way.

But that doesn’t stop you for hoping things will change and work out this time.

For there are many combinations to solving and living the good way as there are only few for just living the safe away and tons of going down the path well traveled.

But now it’s time to finally step out and survive because change is necessary to go to the top.

Each door that is open will show you how to just trust your instinct and it will be true out just fine.

 

 

 

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Copyright ©️ 2020 By Deirdre Stokes

To think

 This could become something great once I finally get out of here.

Feels like the impossible but really it’s possible and I’m so happy that it feels just right to celebrate and to breathe.

Because no more dealing with the same stuff or people.

Everything will be new and grand and hopefully something to look forward too everyday not just once in a blue moon.

 

 

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Copyright ©️ 2020 By Deirdre Stokes

Is it

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 Cold out as I smile for the picture.

You would think I would know with all the winter gear I’m wearing.

But really I just wanted to show off my new outfit and lipstick.

To be the center of attention that day felt great.

For I’m reality fitting in feels like a challenge and that type of battle I just can’t shake.

I want to be me but not be alone when I know I’m with getting to know.

Maybe today someone will start with me but I will walk around and she see who reacts to me in a good vibe and then let them decide whatever it is now.

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Copyright ©️ 2020 By Deirdre Stokes

Oh how

 My heart ache as a old chapter of my life comes to an end.

And a new one begins my nerves are shoot and I feel like a kid on the first day of school.

Excited to see old faces but hoping to see new ones too.

Trying to hold it together as everything that is happening is only a day away.

And yet nothing is going as plan and you feel your procrastination is catching up to you.

And for the first time you don’t want to fuck things up for you want to improve things not ruin them.

 

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Copyright ©️ 2020 By Deirdre Stokes

Tonight lets

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 Celebrate the new changes that are coming our way.

With something sweet and drink something that will comment it.

For it’s time to embrace the change and look forward to it for once for this is my time to shine.

No more thinking too much about things I can’t control or wishing someone would see what I see.

Maybe than they would know it’s not just what’s going on around them but some what their doing too.

 

 

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Copyright ©️ 2020 By Deirdre Stokes

I needed

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 This break to just stop and look at the view

For I’ve been so busy not looking around and just looking in the direction I needed to go.

I know I have to keep focus but I don’t want to miss out on anything in my life as right now in the present so much is happening,

I won’t give up and I will do more for myself because it’s me who will struggle if I do too much or too little in this opportunity I have for now.

 

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Copyright ©️ 2020 By Deirdre Stokes