Complaints as the life on the other side is greener than before.

I don’t regret leaving because of the risk for the first time is worth it.

Maybe I have become stronger and so the things that used to scare me off from taking that leap.

Is now far from my mind as I make my next move.

And I know that I will be just fine as I make a move that will change me for the better.

I know that things will become more clearer as I learn so much more.

I feel the excitement running through me as the days start to add up and the count down begins.

It’s time to enjoy this moment of rest and know things will turn out as long as I have faith gods plan for me and faith that whatever happens is better than if I planned it myself.




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Copyright ©️ 2020 By Deirdre Stokes


Will I

Ever be someone’s number 2 because I would hope they would put the lord before me.

For he leads and I will help on the side with carrying and helping get back up when you fall.

I will listen as you pour your soul and heart out to our lord.

I won’t be mad about being second because I know at the end we all win as long as we let him guide and protect us.

I hope today will be the start of something new and every day and night we grow closer.

But in the end let’s not be self centered and think only about ourselves because at the end of the day we aren’t completely in control.

We must be patient when things seem impossible because we know that’s what his all about.

So one day when you’re ready I will be there with you every step of the way.

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Copyright ©️ 2020 By Deirdre Stokes


To feel


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the sun on my face after such a cold morning.

I just want to forget about today and hope for a better tomorrow

for I know things will be tough and the week will be long and at the end I will want to not come back again.

Things are going so well for me and right now I just hope and wish it will all work out in the end for I am tired of losing sleep over something that is not going to define me at the  end of my day or week.

Something   that has already changed me but not in the way I wanted it too.

At this point only the truth will set me free and today just doesn’t seem like the day where everything will be clear for me .


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Copyright ©️ 2019 By Deirdre Stokes



 feels like something of the past sometimes when all that rises from you lately is frustration.

 unanswered questions running through your life as your story comes to a stop.

You still wonder what to do and why didn’t you move before it was too late.

Because you overthink it all because you don’t want to be in the same situation all over again.

But the truth is you don’t have the answers and as you keep praying for them.

You just have to have a little faith because it will all come together on it own I hope.

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Copyright ©️ 2019 By Deirdre Stokes


This place


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 So beautiful and peaceful that can’t stop coming back to it.

I know now the ugly things don’t matter when I’m here in this place.

It’s like nothing can touch me even when I know all I want to do is run and scream like I’m in a horror movie.

And of course I will run towards the very people hunting me for they too will play as if they are the victims.

Until they turn on me and then as the light fades from my eyes this place will come to my mind and I will be okay with it being my time to go.

Oh how I wish this place wasn’t just in my dreams but where my reality went to be happy and where my soul could have some peace for once.

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Copyright ©️ 2019 By Deirdre Stokes



 by the pain and frustration

That I don’t see the change that is happening around me.

You see I’ve been in the dark with just a flashlight of light and when that window of light shined down on me.

I didn’t notice something had awakened in me.

For it felt no different than the Tuesday before.

But, somehow the energy I was feeling felt so pure and powerful.

It wasn’t until I saw his eyes what I had been trying to see in my owns.

The look was light itself shining back at me with no darkness around and as he stepped cross to me.

I swear I saw an angel in Him and what to come next was nothing short of a miracle.





Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Copyright ©️ 2019 By Deirdre Stokes


In this

 Moment I feel great

And alive.

The sun is shining brightly down on me

The day is heading in such a great pace.

The birds are out and singing their song and I am enjoying this moment as everything is so quiet.

The peace I feel inside is so great and amazing that no amount of words can truly capture how I feel.

It feels like everything around me has become clear and the light I desperately sighted is out shining on everything.

So I can see what is truly going on around me today.

 Nothing is left in the dark and I am not alone today and I will continue to smile and enjoy this time I have if only it last for today.



Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Copyright ©️ 2019 By Deirdre Stokes




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time to get away and let the stress wash right off of me as I sit in a new place that replace all the stress with relaxation.

To feel the joy of not having to worry about anything of anyone for right now this is my time to get lost in a good way.

To feel like there is no rush to do what I need to do and to breathe through it all because at the end its me who will have a smile on my face.




Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Copyright ©️ 2015 By Deirdre Stokes



letting it all out for what’s the point in keeping it all inside.

My story and maybe your story needs to be told but, only if you want too.

Sharing can be delightful and well sometimes scary

but, what’s the point in living if you don’t face the fear and jump in anyways.

When you think back to why something was important too you in the first place all the other things or other people opinions doesn’t matter anymore.

It’s just you writing and loving the way you pour it all out on paper or on a computer.

It all gets delivered the way you want it too, and the feeling of accomplishment is worth the time of  be confused  and unanswered questions.

Because, your fire is back and even if it doesn’t last long this time it will all work out in the end for you will recharge over and over again until the story is told and out there for everyone to love and grow from.



Written By: Deirdre Stokes