I wonder

if you remember me to this day like you said you would and if I still flash in your mind from time to time.

Do the memories of me bring on sadness and regret or just the joy we experience in the time we knew each other.

I know the memories come and go only when my mind has the time to slow down from the busy life that I am living.

Only in these times when my mind sees something that used to be apart of our daily routine than to I think of you.

The past that only pops up when the stress is fading away and some of the better moments in my life comes back to me and always puts a smile on my face.



Written By: Deirdre Stokes





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You happy when you set me free from this life you said had so much more to offer me these days.

Did you ever think about how I really would feel about you leaving me that day and how long it took me to get to this place of peace I’m living in now.

I reach up to the sky and I feel so blessed to feel the light shining down on me this day.

I know that who I am today is because of me and that day you walked away from me, made me realize how much I was leaning on you and not standing on my own two feet.

I need to be balance of myself before I could ever really lean on someone else and now I’m more happy than I could like possible.




Written By: Deirdre Stokes



As a little girl


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I always knew that I wasn’t  afraid of  what life had to offer me at a young age.

I knew that as long as I believed  I could do than it was possible and would come true and I would grow up being just who I knew I would be.

But, then came teenage years and then young adult years and then adult hood and I knew that everything I thought I would be would be not likely.

But, still possible but doubt from all the nasty words that were thrown at me at a young age made me question everything.

And even now as I sit here wondering what to do next and hope that maybe it will still work out in the end.

Kind of feels like I’m wasting my time on words and hope that may not happen because well I just don’t have the time.

For I work to pay the bills not to live out my passion and even though I work hard lately I realize it’s not worth it.

So many reasons that even if you get what you want the demons in your life can rob you of that happiness.

I know what makes me happy and I know that even though I’m helping at the end of the day I feel used and abused and the happy moments don’t out weigh the nasty/ugly moments.



Written By: Deirdre Stokes




had so much to look forward too and maybe you had it all planned out.

But, the day you prepared to walk across that stage felt like the day you had been waiting for.

You were excited and just extreme ready for this day to hurry up for you were just so ready to get it over with.

Soon it ended and the next day was a new journey for you and one that would go in a direction you never thought it would.

The struggle that became your life was overwhelming and not ending anytime soon.

You tried it all to just keep yourself together during this difficult and dark time, It was long and then the light truly shined down on you and things started to look up for you.

But, you became so busy that the little things in life seem not to be as important to you or you just didn’t have the time to enjoy them.

You wanted so bad to just have a moment of peace because you were tired of it all and no matter the little time you got off the state of your mind and body and soul were already ruined and damaged.

You still try to fix the damage that has been done because you just want to be at peace again and to just feel happy for more than two days at a time.


Written By: Deirdre Stokes



So much

was left behind that day and now the hole is getting bigger.

The pain that was left behind

just so you could get a moment to breathe.

You thought the pain would fade and the truth is the wound is so much worse than before.

Time didn’t heal it the way she thought it would and now she was trapped into dealing with it now years later.

The tears that fell down her face that day, brought up so much pain that it was so unbearable.

So she fell to her knees and prayed things would work out soon because she didn’t know how much longer she could keep doing this.


Written By: Deirdre Stokes



Daily Prompt: Laughter

The laughter coming from the back of the store could be heard from the front door and it made you just happy to hear someone having a good moment in there long work day.

You begin to think that without laughter things would be so much more stressful and less enjoyable.

Because, laughter can burn away all the things that make you feel like you just can’t wait for this day to be over.

You work so hard but you realize what were you thinking when you decided to go this way.

Your laugher is so much harder to find and all you hear is a harsh voice coming from you and you wonder what happen to that happy laughing girl.

The past you was so close to that laugher that now you sometimes you  don’t know how to react because laughter hasn’t been apart of your life for a very long time.


Written By: Deirdre Stokes


Daily Prompt: Laughter




Those were the last words I heard from you 

and how much you would not forget me. 

The memories of the past are gone and I realize I don’t think of you anymore but

that day when you said those words I was so mad and hurt at the same time. 

Nothing could have prepared me for the day you walked out of my life.

I guess I never thought this day would come but when it did it shocked me to my core and I didn’t know if I would recover. 

But, now years later that memory only pops up now and then and well I’m not mad or sad anymore and I don’t think of you at all. 

Life now seems so different from before and I’m so thankful you let me go because I’ve grown so much. 

So thanks for the goodbye and closing of a door I didn’t need open anymore, I don’t look or hope that door opens up again. 

I’m glad to have gotten that goodbye and the closure I needed to let go and for that, I don’t fear goodbyes anymore. 


Written By: Deirdre Stokes