Hold on

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for things will start to look up soon 

I know right now things seem so hard that holding on any longer just seems impossible. 

But, I’m here to tell you the pain you are feeling will be worth it at the end of this trial you are going through. 

You have trained for this and it’s time to hold longer than you have before because your strength to get through this is what we are looking for and what you need the most right now. 

You know not what tomorrow will hold for you and so today you must work so hard that you will be satisfied even if the tomorrow never comes or tomorrow you feel weaker than today.


Written By: Deirdre Stokes




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of you on this cold morning as I stand here 

my mind is full of sorrow of the times we had together and now there over. 

I know when I leave this spot and go back to the house we both used to call home 

you will be gone and the home I loved coming back to everyday will be empty and lonely.

I know that I have to leave this spot but I just can’t face what will come once I leave and so I stand out here just a little longer and hope maybe things will be different. 

If I come up with the right plan just maybe things will workout for us and this moment will just be temporary. 

I know that I am the key to your happiness and you are the key to mine when it comes to our love. 

I know this is the real thing and you are it for me so Our home my be just me for now but, soon you will be back and things will be better than before and I hope we stick this time and handle things differently from now on. 



Written By: Deirdre Stokes



I sit

here simply wondering when things will fall back in place as everything around me seems so dark.

I wonder if a storm is coming and if it will wash away my sorrows and as it does will the joy and cheer be restored in me.

Will I gain back the strength I  had or will I be stronger than before or will I know the truth to all the suffering I have faced and  did I pass the test with flying colors.

Or did I let the problems become an impossible situation and gave up before I truly could shine and prove myself.

I sit down and pray to you God that I will overcome my weakness.

I know you are there and you are helping me but, I ask you now to help them as well the ones who may not ask you for help or believe in you.

So as I go I hope you know today will not be the last time we talk for I will sit and wonder some more many times hopefully not so soon again.


Written By: Deirdre Stokes




quiet moments of my day

feels so right.

Nothing bothering me as the peaceful feeling surrounds me

with nothing but joy.

This moment I have been waiting for has been a long time coming

I know that things have been rough but, now it’s starting to look up.

The clouds are now calm as the storm has passed over me for the time being.

I walk around and not worry about something raining down on me and soaking up everything that is good in my life now.


Written By: Deirdre Stokes




come and go from your lips.

And lately I just don’t want to listen anymore

I just want to run away and not take on this responsibility.

I know I will be eaten alive soon by your ways for I’m the prey and you’re the shark coming to take what is not yours to have.

No regret will be on your mind as you turn and tear down all that I have built so far.

I don’t know how many more of your attacks I can take for the pretending to be okay is feels like a losing battle now.


Written By: Deirdre Stokes



I remember

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those days when I couldn’t just laugh off all the bullshit you would spit at me.

I would think about all the ugly you said to me and how I didn’t at the time  wonder what was wrong with you.

I just looked at the target on my back and thought what was wrong with me, now I know nothing was wrong with me but back then I was an easy target.

Even though I fought back for I knew this anger towards me had nothing to do with me, for your darkness was not my fault and the light that could have shined down on you was not being blocked by me.

Now if you have a problem or something to say to me, say because I may hold my peace or laugh right in your face for I know who I am and what I have and nothing you say or do will ever take my smile or laugh away.



Written By: Deirdre Stokes




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I’m not in the best of moods today and this look is all the warning you need. 

I’m clasping on to my jacket as I try to hold in the anger of this day to myself. 

You see I used to care a lot about things and people in my life but, all they showed me was I was important enough for them to make time for me. 

I stop trying to relay on others and just started to relay on myself for at the end of the day that all I really have. 

This world is a big place and I’m surrounded by so many people every day yet I’m sure no one really pays much attention to me anyways. 


Written By: Deirdre Stokes