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Poetry

I want

To reach out to you

And let you know how things are.

But it’s like you disappeared again.

And maybe this silence is for the best.

As the morning begins you are the second thing on my mind.

But I push pass the disappointment and get up to start my day right.

With hope that things will go good and I will accomplish all that I can today.

Without you and as I move forward I will hopefully stop looking back for you.

As if you will ever truly catch up.

Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Copyright ©️ 2020 By Deirdre Stokes

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Poetry

Am I

Not someone worth talking to?

Am I just always going to be the one who supports you but gets no support back.

Is there something wrong with me?

Or am I just someone everyone just gets tired of quickly?

Will, it ever be different for me or will this cycle be around forever?

Those are questions I can’t answer now

And well no one else seems to notice anymore that things aren’t the same or they never really cared.

I’m just a space-filler until someone better comes along.

Bringing just the right amount of entertainment that no one notices me walking out the door.

Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Copyright ©️ 2020 By Deirdre Stokes

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Poetry

How do

I get closer without

Getting burned from the heat.

The heat that just keeps going up and up.

To walk outside is like getting to close to an open flame and not expecting it to burn you.

I’m not sure where this is going

But it all seems to die down and melt away like a flame on a candle when the WIC has finally run out.

Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Copyright ©️ 2020 By Deirdre Stokes

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Not much

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To worry about today as I watch him jump in the puddles.

As if getting his jeans wet wasn’t a concern for him.

The freedom of getting so high with his jump and coming down was a thrill.

As the fun things in his life were a lot smaller than the list of things I had to get done were.

So getting dirty to have a moment of joy was worth it.

For he can always go home and throw them in the washing machine and call it a day.

Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Copyright ©️ 2020 By Deirdre Stokes

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Poetry

With so much

Going on around me

And well hiding isn’t an option.

For I want to survive

Well being cautious and aware about what is going on around.

And I want to stand up and say something and not just hide behind a screen.

I want to work hard and feel like every step i take isn’t like me tip toeing around because I’m afraid to make the wrong move.

For I know the danger is not just in the streets but inside the buildings.

But to speak ones mind and to believe it will all work out.

Takes an higher power and I know no one can take him from me.

So with him I will survive dead or alive for my presents will not be forgotten about.

But for now I will survive alive and continue everything

And hope he will deliver no matter what the outcome for me will be.

For when he comes and paves the way there will be no human that can stop his victory.

Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Copyright ©️ 2020 By Deirdre Stokes

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Poetry

You’ve always

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Been my rock through these tough times.

Just one hug

Just one kiss

Just one look

And everything that seemed too much no longer matters.

For you know how to calm me down and when to get loud with me on the subject.

You listen and only once I’m done do you give me your opinion.

You try to be non-bias when I recap something for you.

For you always want to see the good in people and when it doesn’t work.

You drop the bullshit and move on.

Your always making sure everyone is good before you take care of yourself.

You will always be a part of my happiest moments.

For every begins and ends with you.

Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Copyright ©️ 2020 By Deirdre Stokes

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Poetry

You are

the only one I can’t seem to shake

The only one I can’t see doing anything mean.

The one who does good and stays focus on the things that matter.

And maybe I’m not used to that because I’ve let myself get distracted by everything that is not right.

And now I don’t know what to do with you because I’ve never been in this situation before.

For your different and your full of light and the darkness isn’t something that seems to be gaining on you.

And lately I’ve felt so angry and well the darkness has swallowed me whole and thinking of you.

Has slowly but surely brought me out and today I will do better for me and you.

Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Copyright ©️ 2020 By Deirdre Stokes

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Poetry

I usually

Don’t give in

But when I’m around you

I just can’t say no.

You suck me in with your sweet words

And in that moment I’m special and nothin bring me down.

You have a way with words that make me worry every time.

I want to pull away I just can’t and I truly see how you mean well.

But I’m suffocating from the attention that it’s driving me insane.

For there is always two meaning to what you say and you smile for you know just how to keep me hook.

Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Copyright ©️ 2020 By Deirdre Stokes

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Poetry

I thought

I had it altogether

Only fall float on my back.

Looking up at the sky and asking for help.

But not waiting around long enough to receive it.

So impatient sometimes but right now I give all you as I can’t carry it anymore.

I’m a fool to have tried to do it all on my own.

For it’s you I always run too and it’s you I will always depend on.

For God I am I am falling with or without you but the fact that with you I will fall into your arms.

Without you, I will fall hard on the ground and giving up will be so easy to do.

Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Copyright ©️ 2020 By Deirdre Stokes