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Daily Prompt: Constant

This feeling of unknown is flowing through me continually and no matter how I try to shake it off. 

It just keeps coming back and each time the pain is more intense and as I knee on the ground trying to catch my breath. 

The flashes of my life keep coming forward and I realize that there are so many things that I have done. 

But, not as nearly as much as I have left to do and will I ever get it all done in the end. 

Then I catch my breath and move through life-like nothing was ever wrong.

But, time after time that thought comes back to me and I then look back at what I’ve done and I ask myself is it enough or can I do more. 

Can I be more or am I stuck in this moment with no hope of continuous growth in the things I love or in new things to come. 

 

 

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes

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Am I

enough to hold your attention right now. 

Am I enough of a friend for you to reach out to me today or tomorrow. 

Am I the reason things just don’t seem to workout in the end. 

Am I capable of bring happiness to someone else when I don’t seem to care if I am happy myself. 

Am I ever going to see or hear the truth from you. 

Am I ever going to forget the people who are from my past but, pop up in my dreams. 

Am I doing what I love and yet, I am doing what I dislike just to get by in this lifetime. 

Will I become one of those people who are bitter about everything and just be rude because well I can be. 

Am I settling when I should be pushing on and knocking down so many more walls, instead of hiding behind them. 

Am I worrying about the right things or am I stuck in the same mindset that everyone else is and so now I’m lost. 

That bright person who I knew as me seems a million miles away as this dull person walks around with her head down hoping no one sees her for who she is becoming.

For even she doesn’t like who she is now, so angry and sad with no answer to how she can get out of this mess. 

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes

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Shadows

creeping up on me sometimes feels scary and unknown. 

But, sometimes the shadows that are behind you are not as scary when they are your own. 

The shadow of us pulls away as we stand outside your door talking about what a great night we had. 

Not wanting to go inside yet, for that would mean the night was over and we both never wanted it to end. 

So much had happen and now we just couldn’t accept that it could end this way. 

But, eventually we said goodbye and I hoped to see you again soon and even though you asked and I said yes nothing in this life is guaranteed. 

For once something good is happening to me and I’m looking forward to the unknown that is coming my way. 

 

 

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes

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Daily Prompt: Present

I live in the present but, sometimes my head is in the clouds and I fade away from the reality of this world. 

Sometimes the present feels like a nightmare and no matter how far I run it always catches up to me. 

I try to block out the unpleasant moments in the present and keep moving forward for letting go of the past makes these moments so much more freeing. 

The present I must focus on now but, the present is something I sometimes don’t look forward too for the pain of yesterday sometimes continues into today. 

Why are people so annoying, that is a question I ask myself in the past in the present and probably in the future too. 

When do the idiots stop doing the same thing over again, if it didn’t work in the past why would it work in the present?

Open your eyes and stop being so ignorant to the things going on now, it’s now 2018 and today you are living in the present. 

So let go of your past hatred and accept that the now is how you need to live.

But, the truth is living in the present doesn’t make you forget what happened in the past and sometimes the those things more forward with you.

The present could be so much better but, it seems the things of the past are always coming back and instead of loving one another we dislike each other. 

And then the pain begins and the hurtful words are being thrown out and the situation of something good coming out of the situation is not good at all. 

 

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes

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Around

you I just feel like there is no care in the world.

And, I’m grateful that I get these moments when I feel nothing but peace.

The thoughts of anger and sadness just aren’t around when you are so near to me.

I feel like I’m alive again and the things that have been thrown at me just aren’t as big as I thought or felt they were.

With your words and love I am free from the chains that hold me to my sorrow, today the sun shines down and all I think of is that is you warming me with your love.

I don’t doubt you but, sometimes I doubt myself because the pressure is on me now then it was before and I’m trying my best most of the time.

I feel like I’ve lost my mind and become the mad hater and nothing that is coming out my mouth now is making any sense.

I try  to focus but, it’s hard when everything is being thrown at me from so many directions.

I catch somethings and well others I miss and I try to do my best not to overstressed but it all becomes too much at the end of the day.

 

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes

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Daily Prompt: Courage

Take the first step of courage and make the choice to not let anyone run your life but you. 

I know you want it all but, what are you worth losing just to claim the end result of feeling empty. 

I give you the courage to speak your mind and do what your suppose to do and not let all these people drag you down.

I know you are in depend right now but, have the courage to say no and move on without the guilt or regret of feeling bad because you too know your limits. 

This place won’t break you even when you feel like you are about to explode because, they are pulling you in so many directions. 

That step of courage isn’t just about you finding yourself again but, appreciated this life that God granted for you. 

Every day you live for him and not for them because, when it’s your time to go will they cry as hard or will they easily just replace you. 

You know this move is the right one and at the end of the day you just have to put yourself first because, you are no good to anyone if you are tired and physically can’t do anymore now if it was even possible. 

 

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes

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I try to not be so overwhelmed about everything that seems to being falling into my lap right now.

I want to run and not worry about the demands being thrown my way, if only I had seen this coming.

I know that I would have never went down this path and took the risk because it’s really not working out.

I’m like a zombie and some days it feels like I’m just repeating the same shit over and over again.

Like there is no end to it and I’m starting to wonder why I am doing this in the first place, the reward is no longer worth the pain and sorrow.

Today and tomorrow all seem like no hope is in sight for me.

 

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes

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