So much

was left behind that day and now the hole is getting bigger.

The pain that was left behind

just so you could get a moment to breathe.

You thought the pain would fade and the truth is the wound is so much worse than before.

Time didn’t heal it the way she thought it would and now she was trapped into dealing with it now years later.

The tears that fell down her face that day, brought up so much pain that it was so unbearable.

So she fell to her knees and prayed things would work out soon because she didn’t know how much longer she could keep doing this.

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes

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Daily Prompt: Assumption

I was a fool to think you would be around when I needed you

I just assumed that when you say you would always be there for me.

I thought that was you saying more than just words to me that night but, yet again you are not around.

Always coming later when I don’t need you anymore and someone else has stepped in to help.

Time went by since the last time I saw you and it was a shock to see you reaching out to me as if you truly care.

I was busy living my life and not waiting around for you to have time for me and so I missed out on being there for you and I guess you just assumed I would always be around because that’s who I was.

The one who drops everything to help you out no matter what, but that big heart of kindness died a long time ago waiting for you and now I’ll keep missing whatever and whenever you need me for I can’t be depended on anymore.

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes

Daily Prompt: Assumption

Relax

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Relax your body as we sit here watching the turtle swim towards, it’s a precious sight to be able to watch and enjoy.

The peace that rains down on me it feels so  good and I can’t remember the last time I felt this peace or felt this calm.

My happiness was captured on this day with a simple photo and I realized that the things that feel like their holding me down no longer have the same grip as they had before this day.

 

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes

Relax

Daily Prompt: Disappear

Sometimes I wish these nasty people would let their nasty attitudes disappear and would for once realize everyone is human.

But, I realize that well this is a wish that possibly not going to happen because to these people I am nothing but a servant to them and without them I have nothing.

I am not worth respecting and they can be as nasty and wrong because it is my job to serve and please them.

If only the tables were turn and they were in my shoes and dealing with the crap that I go through, would they be able to get through it?

I bet they won’t because if they react the way they do now and tell everyone their sad story which isn’t that sad.

They wouldn’t last a day in my shoes and I would gladly take their shoes and probably go around being nicer to people for we all have a story.

Maybe you don’t want to hear mine and yet I already know yours and yet out of respect and being a decent human being I listen and show sympathy now and then.

I could disappear and I’m sure you would be happy not to see my face but, the things you complain about will still be there with or without me.

So for now I will disappear and accept that with me gone maybe you will be happy but, it’s not me that you have to answer to at the end of the day.

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes

Daily Prompt: Disappear

Anywhere

I rather be right now than here in the darkness that swallows me whole with no exit insight.

I sit here trying to think of a way out because it feels like I’m suffocating on all that is pushing up against me.

This solution is not an answer to my situation and so I’m back at square one and it feels like I’m running out of time and air around me.

As I slowly fall down and down like black hole that you can’t see the bottom and so when will I hit the spot that tells me this is solved and over with.

Nothing to help me pull my way back up, right now it feels like a losing battle for me and as I fall I start to think about the things that have come before this moment and time.

Was there a time that I could have stopped myself from falling into this danger that just eats me alive and ends up with me being nothing in the end.

 

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes

Feeling

a little lost after spending so much time on the move that when one slows down.

It’s like I’ve missed so much and well the people who demand so much of me don’t care as I lose myself and the person I see in the mirror these days are a stranger.

Her eyes always looking so tired and sad that I wonder what others see when they see her everyday.

Do they see her cry for help, because all she wants to do is escape and not be trapped in this space of feeling like a stranger in the body that she lived in since she was young.

The sweet and innocent person is now so sad and angry or just too tired to care at all what she is.

No longer taking crap from anyone she has become so hard that it’s so hard to be soft towards anyone for her guard is always up now.

She feels like nothing good is coming from her new change and fears her sometime good time will soon turn into nothing but nasty and unfortunate events.

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes

Daily Prompt: Complication

Daily Prompt: Premature

The moment was premature because neither she or him knew this was the moment that would change everything.

They didn’t know that the  moment that felt strange and out-of-place would be the moment that would change everything.

The thought that this premature love was something that would come back and make a future love that would last longer than it took for them to realize it wasn’t just a one time chance that got them to this place.

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes

Daily Prompt: Premature