Things have

Change and you

Realize the things that used to bother you

don’t anymore.

At least not in the way they did before.

It’s like they don’t stick to you anymore and so they don’t ruin your mood.

Or your day or week or month.

They just coexist with you

And maybe they get solved and you move on?

Or they just keep floating along forgotten this whole time.

But your story keeps going and the growth in your faith and your lifestyle.

Keeps expanding until doubt and insecurity no longer hold you back.

Your path is clear and your mind and heart

are open to so many more possibilities.

Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Copyright ©️ 2020 By Deirdre Stokes


Oh how

You are always on my mind and always in my heart.

You are my guide through this all.

And lately I haven’t been my best and yet you have stayed by my side.

For you are my God and through it all I truly know I can overcome it all.

Especially when I am a mess and nothing seems to make sense but when I let go.

And wake up the next day you always deliver just what I need.

And for that I am so grateful and I know through the struggles.

You will be there and I accept the hard times because when it’s easy it always feels like something missing.

The struggle make somethings so clear and true.

And for that I am thankful and light right now as nothing holds me back.

Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Copyright ©️ 2020 By Deirdre Stokes


In this

World there are many pieces of me floating around.

Left behind as I travel to and from these places.

I know that one day they will all come back to me or found by others and change them for the better.

I stand here now letting go all that I cannot control and letting in more light.

Being kind and accepting what is to come my way.

For I don’t want to overthink it anymore for that causing more pain then it needs too.

Whatever happens I am okay with the outcome now.

As I open myself up to so many possibilities.

Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Copyright ©️ 2020 By Deirdre Stokes


I thought

I had it altogether

Only fall float on my back.

Looking up at the sky and asking for help.

But not waiting around long enough to receive it.

So impatient sometimes but right now I give all you as I can’t carry it anymore.

I’m a fool to have tried to do it all on my own.

For it’s you I always run too and it’s you I will always depend on.

For God I am I am falling with or without you but the fact that with you I will fall into your arms.

Without you, I will fall hard on the ground and giving up will be so easy to do.

Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Copyright ©️ 2020 By Deirdre Stokes


I didn’t

Know going into the unknown

Would break the dam of feelings I’ve been dealing with.

The feeling of not knowing why or how to find my way out.

But allowing those moments of being lost to guide me to a path I didn’t see myself being worthy of.

Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Copyright ©️ 2020 By Deirdre Stokes

But now, I realize this has been what I’ve always wanted and it was years ago that I let this path fade away.

And now it’s time to go back to what truly completes me and defines me for me.

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I needed

This moment to appreciate all I have and may get later.

Tired is my body and hungry is my soul.

I crave the words that come from stories and books.

I crave the sound of music and can’t wait to hear the beat.

The words that stay with me forever.

I crave the sleep that I will gain once I lay down in bed.

I appreciate the one that helps me through it all and not just for today.

I know I’m ready to be near him and to know this struggle was worth it for I am worth it.

Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Copyright ©️ 2020 By Deirdre Stokes


To know

That what I want is not in front of me right now.

Doesn’t make things any easier to figure out and what decision is going to make things better.

I pray that I don’t mess this up and that I truly know what is right and wrong for me as the days continue to pass by.

I know that I’m trying to do my best to get it done but right now things aren’t adding up but I’m not giving up just yet.

Written By: Deirdre Stokes

Copyright ©️ 2020 By Deirdre Stokes


I’m being

Hopeful this year

I hope, more will become great moments for me.

And that I will live up to the standards that have been put out before me and those to come.

The feeling that this is not a repeat of anything I’ve ever experienced.

Before and so far and so the shift in my life has begun.

And where it will lead me is so unknown that I just keep walking because it feels right.

I can feel the light growing inside of me and the darkness is growing so small.

As I smile it grows so weak and tries to hide but I won’t lose this battle and it must go.

So I think about everything that makes me happy and whom I love and all I see for miles is the light in me shining so brightly.

And that is how it will be for now as long as I trust you, my lord, I will continue to win.

Written By: Deirdre StokesCopyright ©️ 2020 By Deirdre Stokes


Oh how

 you’ve given me the strength to carry on lately.

Especially with everything going on all I can think of is how you gave me a second chance at life.

At opportunities, I didn’t think we’re going to happen to me this year.

But there you were knocking down those doors I thought we’re not gonna open and here I was gonna be left alone here to truly break down.

And lose who I was and to not believe I was good enough to leave and better myself from this place.

Oh God how much I love and appreciate all that you do for me now and later on in my life.



Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Copyright ©️ 2019 By Deirdre Stokes