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Oh how

 you’ve given me the strength to carry on lately.

Especially with everything going on all I can think of is how you gave me a second chance at life.

At opportunities, I didn’t think we’re going to happen to me this year.

But there you were knocking down those doors I thought we’re not gonna open and here I was gonna be left alone here to truly break down.

And lose who I was and to not believe I was good enough to leave and better myself from this place.

Oh God how much I love and appreciate all that you do for me now and later on in my life.

 

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Copyright ©️ 2019 By Deirdre Stokes

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How could

 I say this in the nicest way without truly hurting you.

Oh how I want to say what’s on my mind right now.

It’s so bad that I say nothing because I’m afraid I will just spill out of me like a waterfall.

And once it’s out I don’t care about the outcome because I’ve already wasted so much time caring about things that don’t matter.

I’m a open book but right now I’m closing my doors and packing up to go.

Nothing left to share as I realize there is so much more for me then standing here holding my tongue all day.

It’s time to just be me and let my wings out and fly away into the sun in hopes of seeing another day.

Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Copyright ©️ 2019 By Deirdre Stokes

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You make

me see that there is more out there for me and not just in this moment or day.

But in my life and as long as I try and put the work out there, there really isn’t anything that can hold me back.

Seeing you shine made me realize there really isn’t a better time then now to jump and hope my wings will carry through it all.

My voice is powerful if I would just use it because at the end of the day I want to be able to handle everything that comes my way.

I appreciate that you appreciate all that I do but now it’s time for me to do more for me than you.

Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Copyright ©️ 2019 By Deirdre Stokes

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Even

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In my darkest hour you are there for me.

In the morning when I first wake up to the moment I have to actually get out of bed.

I know that no matter what time of day it is you will get up and walk with me.

Every adventure  I just have to mention and you will have already decided you are going and there will be no if’s about it.

You protect me and everyway and every day and there is not a moment I’m not grateful for your help and your love.

So today and everyday to come I know you will get me through it, no matter how dark it is for when I’m scared you are there to hold my hand and hug me when I need it the most.

 

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Copyright ©️ 2015 By Deirdre Stokes

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Oh

Lord If I didn’t have you inside of me

tonight would have gone differently.

The calmness would have gone out of me and in its place would have been a storm.

Words would have been flying around and not in a good way and for once she would have been put in her place.

But, she wasn’t worth going there because that door where my anger is stored needs to kept closed.

For life is better without the anger that just makes a bigger mess in any situation.

So over the devil butting into my life with his followers and today and tomorrow I won’t pay them any mind.

As the wind blows into my life and pushes out the frustration of last night and brings with it some much needed fresh air.

 

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Copyright ©️ 2015 By Deirdre Stokes

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Oh

God how I saw you shining through someone today.

Their joy was so clear and so pure and full of life.

It just made me smile too and not question why he was that happy for I just knew it was because of you.

He jumped for joy when I mentioned it was always so good to see him for he always came around in such an amazing mood.

You and him made my day as you brighten the moments that made me not want to be there just be in my own zone.

You showed me that no matter how much moments feel like they are not worth smiling about, it is so worth it too just smile and enjoy others when they come around.

 

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Copyright ©️ 2015 By Deirdre Stokes

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I closed

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my eyes and prayed everything would be alright that day.

And that the next day the stress of the day before was not still on my shoulders.

I know that I have worried about everything but the true depth of my situation is worst than I thought.

There will be a time  where all I do is pray for nothing I do on my own will get me through the chaos that is happening here today and everyday after it.

The peace of knowing that you can feel what is gong on around you is great but when I pray I don’t know if everything will be okay but I trust and believe it will all workout for me.

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes

Copyright ©️ 2015 By Deirdre Stokes

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What

is life if not for you God.

is it nothing without you?

Do we sometimes think we run the day or control people because what we say goes.

Do we lose sight of what is really important to us because of what others have going on in their lives.

Do we want to live our life or do we want to live their life?

I know I’m fighting to get my life in order because I know I will be the only one who cares about what happens to me now or years down the road.

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes

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I am

full of life and I’m not going anywhere.

I wonder what tomorrow will hold for me as the sun shines down on me.

I know that these days are not something I can plan  and so I must have hope that I will make it to the next.

I must do what is best for me now and have hope that I will be able to continue doing great many more days.

Twenty-nine years and I feel there is so much more for me to do and I feel like in a way I am just beginning.

This moment feels like no going back to how I thought before and the feeling that is inside me is so strong that I don’t want it to disappear as my head hits the pillow tonight.

I want to keep climbing and not for selfish reasons but for more than I can understand right now.

I want to do it all and make it worth more than I am in the end for I am just a person and what I want to do will be more than remembering my name and those after me.

I am just a piece to the answer that some of you have being waiting for all this time.

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes

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