It’s always

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just been the three of us and I’ve cherish these moments we shared together. 

I know we went through those awkward moments together and came out with a friendship that is still so unbreakable. 

You two were always there protecting me from the wrong guy, the wrong decision the falls I kept finding myself about to happen but always had strong arms to lift or catch me before I hurt myself .

To me you two were my hero’s, my best friends and my brothers I didn’t ask for but, appreciate so much. 

I’m grateful for you two and I know as we watch sunrise this morning that there will be many more days when we just stop and enjoy these little moments together. 

I adore both of you and love you with all my heart and one day we will be separated but, yet still so connected.

And one day it will be our children getting to enjoy this bond we have and hopefully they will stay close and true to each other like we did all these years. 


Written By: Deirdre Stokes




Company makes the tiring and long days not as bad as you would think.

You know when you have the right people around that things will work out in your favor.

You start looking forward to seeing these people and even though you have to work, you start to become a family and you have each other backs.

You know that things will be okay, you understand each other and know that sometimes someone is going to be off and you are there to help out a little bit more just to make things better for them.

You do your best because you want to work hard as a team and at the end of the day, your success is their success too.

Your happy and laughter and wouldn’t trade it in for anything but, maybe a couple of days off but you know you will be missed.



Written By: Deirdre Stokes



I thought

I was clever as I said those words to you.

I thought I knew what was needed to be said but, you prove me wrong and I’ll never forget that smile on your face.

All the small things from you became all the things that mattered.

Your sweetness was something I started to crave and I realized how lucky I was that day. 

You were truly special and different in your way and everyone else that came to play.

Didn’t have a chance to catch up to the strength and understanding you had.

You opened my heart and fixed all the pieces that were damaged and you opened your arms. 

And you never let me go even though sometimes I tried with all my might to push you away.

You never truly let me go even when I broke away one day.

For every time I looked around there you were and I could not ignore how I felt.



Written By: Deirdre Stokes 




Here we go

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again the three of us hanging out always spells for a good time.

Laughter is always loud and around when we are together even if it just for a hour and a half.

We try to meet up more but lately these have been a little busy for us all but, I know that soon things will slow down.

We love to shop together and walk around together laughing and catching up with no care in the world.

We have always had each other’s back since day one of this friendship, even with the odd number of three we always made it work and made sure no one felt left out.

They always said trouble was coming when the three of us got together and maybe sometime we cause a little damage here and there but we always fixed what we broke.

Our style is each unique and different that no matter apart of together we always commented on something we care wearing.

We accept each other flaws and know that at the end of the day we have each others back and nothing will keep us apart for long.

For we became friends at 6 years old and we because family soon after.

Our pain whether separate or together we comfort each other in person or on the phone for at the end of day we know that we don’t want to be missing the other in the reality that they are not coming back.

We spend time together like it’s our last and we know if it is we lived it to the fullest with no regrets and no opportunities left unturned.



Written By: Deirdre Stokes



I don’t

know how to play it cool when it comes to you.

I try my best to not let things bother me when it comes to you.

But, I find it hard to just let things be when you’re so important to me that just letting things fade away.

Truly is saddening to me and yet that is how things are now.

I used to try harder to get your attention but, now I’m too tired to put in the effort I used to.

So here I stand watching what was once one of my favorite things to do just fade away like another day on this earth.

I know that I won’t forget you but, I can’t say the same for you.


Written By: Deirdre Stokes





Those were the last words I heard from you 

and how much you would not forget me. 

The memories of the past are gone and I realize I don’t think of you anymore but

that day when you said those words I was so mad and hurt at the same time. 

Nothing could have prepared me for the day you walked out of my life.

I guess I never thought this day would come but when it did it shocked me to my core and I didn’t know if I would recover. 

But, now years later that memory only pops up now and then and well I’m not mad or sad anymore and I don’t think of you at all. 

Life now seems so different from before and I’m so thankful you let me go because I’ve grown so much. 

So thanks for the goodbye and closing of a door I didn’t need open anymore, I don’t look or hope that door opens up again. 

I’m glad to have gotten that goodbye and the closure I needed to let go and for that, I don’t fear goodbyes anymore. 


Written By: Deirdre Stokes



I don’t want

to let this go but what more can one get from something that feels so predictable.

Nothing is fun anymore and everything just feels like it’s being stretched out to last longer.

In the hope that things will workout in the end and maybe they will but maybe they won’t.

Life just isn’t the same as it was before and maybe that’s on me but what can I say, I like to shake things up and not keep things the same.

I don’t like feeling bored or defeated and right now I feel like I’m fighting a losing battle and no matter how I feel the results are not good.

I don’t want to walk away and have to forget but what can I do now when all I see are the old times and the new times seem like I’m avoiding you and everything I know I need to say.

I don’t know how much longer I can keep avoiding this end this something so true but, no longer exist and I have to face the light and accept that somethings I’ve out grown and the sadness that was once there just isn’t anymore.

I have no time to look in the past when the present is now and the emotions surrounding me now are positive and lively.

The light outweighs the darkness more than it has ever been.



Written By: Deirdre Stokes



What tore us

apart doesn’t seem to matter anymore as I’m drawn to you tonight.

You smile and I smile and all the things that hurt me and that hurt you are all in the past and now that time has healed those wounds.

Maybe now we can start something new and get to know each other all over again as we have both grown over the years.

Were not the kids we used to be and now talking just seems so much easier and we laugh about the things in the past that seemed like a big deal at the time.

You lean on me as I lean on you and we both realize that there was so much we had been missing out on in each other life. 

We both felt like we needed more out of the life we had and just needed someone new to help us push past the borders in our life. 

And move into a new space and see what life takes us outside of the box we had grown so comfortable in. 

You became so much more than I thought was possible in my life and everyday I made sure I spent time with you and didn’t want to take you for granted again. 

For I didn’t know if this would be my last chance with you but, I hoped that we would build a strong enough bridge to hold us together and that we would not ever have to worry about not being in each other lives. 

We made plans and follow through with them and we made sure we didn’t get lost in each other. 

But, that we helped each other reach a goal each day or week because we didn’t want to resent one another and we wanted to be the best at what we loved and to know that the fire that burns in both of us is still going strong. 

I believe in you and you believe in me and at the end of the day we will always have each others back until the day we die


Written By: Deirdre Stokes



Talking to you

always is worth the wait, I know we don’t talk as much anymore and I don’t know how you feel about that. 

But, life is throwing so much at both of us that the time when we could probably talk just doesn’t happen for we both end up just being too tired. 

So days have gone by and maybe even weeks and months and then one day it just seems like a good time to say hi and it always never seems like time has gone by. 

We just pick up where we left off and talk and talk until we have nothing left to say until next time when ever that may be. 

Time doesn’t really stop me from not caring and the feeling of not being there for you always doesn’t sit right with me but, I know that life is pulling us both in two different directions. 

SO it’s hard to but the certain that when something big happens you are always the first to know and even over tired you always seems to make just a little bit of time seem like hours. 

The memories and the moments yet to come are the things that I look forward too as this year comes to an end and a new one is yet to begin. 



Written By: Deirdre Stokes