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So before

 I go today

I want you to know.

It’s been a struggle for me

To find the right words to express.

How much I care for you.

So many unsent text messages because I just didn’t know what you needed to hear.

And now there is still no words that feel good enough because you are too unique for simple words.

That won’t show you how much I care and that this isn’t just another friendship to me.

For I see you like family and you are important and I always want to check up on you and hope you well for I know you will do the same.

 

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Copyright ©️ 2020 By Deirdre Stokes

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I don’t

Know what to feel right now as I embark on a new journey that is kinda scary.

I feel like things are up In the air and now I feel like you want me to feel that I made a mistake.

And I should have followed you for the grass seems greener on your side now.

While I’m still living half in hell and half in paradise.

But it’s a risk I’m ready to take for life isn’t always about me but right now I just want to finally get a chance at challenging myself and getting out of my comfort zone.

I don’t know how to feel but right now I just want to disconnect and back out of this awkward moment.

 

 

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Copyright ©️ 2020 By Deirdre Stokes

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I believe

On this sunny day

You were sent to me to make me smile Throughout my day even when you are not around.

I know now that you are an angel sent to Look out for me and I appreciate you always asking about me.

I know now even if I don’t see you again you will always be in my heart.

 

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes

Copyright ©️ 2015 By Deirdre Stokes

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I

won’t keep hiding from you if you would just open up.

Just let me come in as it heats up outside and the spring weather blows through.

let’s be like a nice day outside sharing the breeze and the sun shine as we begin to connect again.

And feel at peace as a beautiful melody plays as we realize being stubborn won’t help this situation.

We must compromise to solve and fix the things we are both fighting and show all our cards this time.

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes

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We

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are friends and yes we are different in so many ways

but the similarities are few but together we are always one.

We have our own style and our own smiles and dreams and hopes and we support one another because one day we may not be holding hands walking down the street together.

We may be living far apart but, in this moment we are happy and we are connected and we are all we need besides family and other friends.

We are not these young girls anymore and we have felt the burn of the world.

We have accepted somethings that we have experienced and have push back at things we disagree on.

We are four strong young ladies and in that moment we are smiling on the past as we move forward for the future.

 

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes

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The

last thing that I want to do is hurt you but how long can we drag this on.

I keep thinking about what I’m going to say to you but yet at the last-minute I

just close the message.

And overtime I will forget and move on and maybe I will be just too busy to worry about

how things are going for you.

I know that through social media how things are and so I keep moving forward and not worrying because you keep writing about what is going on and so I don’t bother to reach out.

I know I should try but the words that I want to say just won’t come out and even though I know they need to be said because I just can’t keep this going.

But, I feel like the guilt of knowing that I will hurt you is enough to stop me for saying what needs to be said.

But, the truth is I’m hurting too and it just keeps eating me up inside and I feel like I’m going mad if I hold it all inside any longer.

I need to let it out and be free from this and even though I so wanted to hold on to you for so much longer  I just don’t see how I could or even if I want to anymore for I know the way I feel about you isn’t the same anymore.

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes

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It’s getting

late and I know that it’s time for me to go.

I know that you don’t want to me to know all that is going on

and at first I was fine with that but, how much longer do I have to wait.

Because the longer I wait the more I feel less in your life and more like an outsider looking in and only granted peeks here and there.

You feel I’m being to demanding and that your life is just too complicated and it’s best to not let me get too close.

I’m not the one you want to show your  vulnerable side  with and yet it breaks you if I try to walk away.

But, yet again I feel like I am invading your space and well maybe that would be true if it wasn’t you who let me in to begin with.

I will always love you but, this is not healthy or right for me to keep living this way that makes me feel like I’m putting apart of my life on hold for someone who will never pull me into a world that I deserve.

One with less hurt and pain and disappointment, one that feels like two people are working to make this right and now just one person trying to knock down everything you put up to keep them out.

 

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes

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If I’M

going to choice to let my fears go and not hold any more power over me then I have to do the things I don’t want to do.

So as I sit down and write this I know what I have to do for I know holding on to something that I hope will get better over time.

But, the truth is  were at a stand still and I’m not giving it any attention or care and so today I’m just completely letting it go.

I know my emotions maybe all over the place but, I know with time this will be the best decision because holding on has done more harm than just letting go.

I embrace the feeling of being vulnerable for a little while and know that it’s okay to be sad  but, it’s not okay to hold on to something that is not making the present or my possible future better.

If I’m going to walk away I’ve thought about all that I could say and what I will actually say to you and then I do it.

I saw the sadness in your eyes and realize it was in mines too but, it was time to walk away from the past and focus on my new present that felt so much lighter with the less stressful.

If only you had done something sooner but, tonight our story ends and my story of just me continues on.

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes

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Three Line Tales, Week 154

Week 154 of Three Line Tales.

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As a child the simple act of jumping to rock to rock with nothing but joy on our minds and nothing in the world was able to touch you at these times.

You laughed and you felt full with joy and happiness and it was just you and your best friend every step of the way.

You didn’t have to worry about who had your back for you knew he always would and now as adults the joy is still there but so is the sadness.

 

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes

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Joy