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If only

they knew the truth about your wicked ways.

The breath so hot it feels like a dragon breathing down my neck.

The strength of your words always feel like I’m drowning with bricks tied to my feet.

The days that I count until you’re not around to hunt me down like a wolf looking for its next meal.

The sweat I feel dripping down my neck as I fear what will happen to me if I mess up again in front of you.

No witnesses to watch you take your anger out on me.

I want to be free from this prison I live in only to wander through life not knowing what to do next with my desire to be free at last.

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes

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Do you hear

me here as I sit here to wait for you to arrive, repeating each word out loud until I remember each word.

I know that if this speech doesn’t go right it won’t just embarrasses me but you too and I just don’t think I can let my failure be yours too.

I woke up this morning with all the confidence in the world that things were going to go well.

Now, as it pours down raining outside all the good luck I felt before just feels like it got washed away.

As panic set in I want so bad for this to work out because I just can’t continue on with knowing that there is more out there and I have so much to offer.

Just when I am so close to having a panic attack, I get a text from you saying just breathe I’m on my way sorry traffic was crazy.

Today will go down just the way you pictured it, a win that you deserve and will receive because you are what they are looking for and they would be fools to pass you by.

Just like that the switch of doubt is turned back off and I start to get my confidence back and when you arrive.

I already know that tonight will be a success because  I am me because of you and all the support you have given me during this time.

Tonight was one of the best wins I have gotten in a while but, I know soon the look on your face will be the greatest win I could have asked for.

To forever with you and to slowly climbing the ladder of success one day at a time.

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes

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Daily Prompt: Deplete

He depleted all the funds from your joint account and he wasted no time to get away and never to be seen again.

You thought you could trust him and you felt mad and sad all at the same time.

But, the truth was he did more deplete on your energy and time then on the money because most of the money was his and not much of yours.

For, you learned a long time ago that what is your’s is best kept with you and someone who wants to spend all the time will take more than their own in the end.

You were relieved that the account was finally closed and he was gone.

For you didn’t sign up to do all the work on your own for there was always the two of you and in the end.

It was just you and even though it was a struggle you did it all on own and no one could tell you that you didn’t work hard in the end.

 

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes

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Daily Prompt: Deplete

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Does it

ever get better she cries on this long day.

The cold air outside feels a lot like what she feels like on the inside right.

she wants to give up so bad and yet she keeps running in hope that she will run into the right arms.

And someone will save her from the pain that is eating her alive.

Leaving her big heart so small and closed off now.

Her energy is slowly fading as she walks into the light and the person she used to be is no more.

She’s told over and over that giving up isn’t the answer and that she matters.

But, at the same time those people keep pushing her away and whispering behind her back that she is not worth saving.

She doesn’t know who to believe and so she keeps running and hoping the solution to her problems.

Will come to her soon because she can’t keep living this way.

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes

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Daily Prompt: Inscrutable

When I walked into that room that day I didn’t think I would have an instant connection to you.

The way I felt it was unexplainable for me especially since I didn’t know who you were and what these feeling really meant.

You smiled at me like you knew what I was feeling and it made me feel comfortable but at the same time so confused.

I didn’t get to talk to you at first for I was there to focus on other things than the boy that sparked my attention.

The day seemed to go on and on as I thought of ways to say hi to you, but in the end you got up and beat me to punch and said hello.

From then on I’m not sure how to explain what felt like the missing pieces coming together and I could physically feel my life shift in a new direction and I didn’t want or cared to doubt or worry about the outcome.

For the first time in a long time I felt peaceful and at home and there was no way I was going to look back.

When looking forward was so much more than I could ever have daydreamed up, it was like I was finally living and breathing the air I needed to survive with an actual geniue smile on my face.

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes

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I see you

I hear you

Crying out

For someone, anyone to just hear you.

You want to be rescued from the pain that your hiding behind those eyes.

You want to be seen as good but, your past is so dark that you don’t know how to embrace the light that is coming into your present.

You want to be seen as the person who is now good and has been forgiven for the his past and now is living in the moment that can change everything.

Your heart just wants to be loved and accepted because well life can get lonely sometimes and you don’t really know whose apart of that life anymore.

You trying so hard to look forward but, the good times of the past keep flashing before your eyes.

And you begin to wonder what life would have been like things had turned out a different way.

But, you begin to realize that every struggle that you had come across was a blessing for your life is where it needs to be right now.

You feel happy and satisfied and even though most days are tough, you continue to get up and be strong and motivated to do what needs to get down because you want to be here when something new comes along.

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes

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Denial

I could deny that I don’t feel like there was so much more that I needed to say before you closed your eyes and let everything go.

I could have told you the truth and maybe then we both wouldn’t be standing on two different tracks but standing together.

Maybe I wouldn’t be so sad and you wouldn’t be so mad and confused and all the answers we both needed to hear wouldn’t still be mystery to us now.

Maybe your smile would be shining so bright right now instead all I see is a frown on your face.

And maybe seeing you know surround by the people who always have your back would make me happy because, I could just walk over and join you and spend the night laughing so hard that tears comes to my eyes.

You held so much apart of my life that now it just feels like a puzzle that will always be missing the pieces that make it come together.

If only I had the courage to tell you the truth and bring us back together and be as close as we used to be.

 

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes

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