I have forgotten all that have been around me when times were rough

as I live in the moments that are good.

But, soon the darkness comes back and I am faced with the truth  did I let all that was good just walk away because I was being ungrateful to them.

Time has gone by and I just don’t know how much time has gone by that I’ve reached out and talked to you.

Life just keeps moving forward and all I want to do is just not be so tired from trying to do more than I am capable of doing.

No moment of rest just filling and filling and yet there is no end to the mess that we are in and the light that shined in at first now is just a spot in the corner.

You begin to wonder how long did I walk around in the dark ignoring the light that was trying to guide me home.

Because I thought I knew what was best for me and the path that I am on just doesn’t feel right anymore or maybe it never did but there was something good on the path so the stress and pain wasn’t so bad.

For that someone was taking all the hits and nothing was getting through to me but now that something is saying it is time to step off the road that is leading you no where good.

It’s time to listen to me and follow me from the hell you are living in and come into the light where nothing bad can touch you unless that thing was meant to show you the way to a better place.

To feel this overwhelming love and peace and to know that someone is always watching your back even when you feel you  have come and delivered.

But, your life purpose is not yet over and it’s time to take a walk down a new path now and I hope you are ready.



Written By: Deirdre Stokes




you I just feel like there is no care in the world.

And, I’m grateful that I get these moments when I feel nothing but peace.

The thoughts of anger and sadness just aren’t around when you are so near to me.

I feel like I’m alive again and the things that have been thrown at me just aren’t as big as I thought or felt they were.

With your words and love I am free from the chains that hold me to my sorrow, today the sun shines down and all I think of is that is you warming me with your love.

I don’t doubt you but, sometimes I doubt myself because the pressure is on me now then it was before and I’m trying my best most of the time.

I feel like I’ve lost my mind and become the mad hater and nothing that is coming out my mouth now is making any sense.

I try  to focus but, it’s hard when everything is being thrown at me from so many directions.

I catch somethings and well others I miss and I try to do my best not to overstressed but it all becomes too much at the end of the day.



Written By: Deirdre Stokes



Daily Prompt: Homage

To praise him is like taking a deep breath and then jumping from a cliff

and knowing that when you fall into the water you would be safe.

He makes me feel alive and that tough days are worth it in the end and there will always be light at the end of my tunnels in my lifetime.

I find myself  more and more each day when I listen to the music that praises you.

Who are you they ask?

You are my God, you are my father, my protector, my healer, my biggest supporter, and my life saver.

You are the reason I keep writing and the reason I keep going when life gets tough because without you the demons in my life would win and I wouldn’t be who I am today.

My past would still haunt me night and day and there would be no escape for me, no outlet to pour all those fears and pain into.

I wouldn’t be as strong as I am today without your strength, without your love because your love is greater than any love this world could ever offer me.

I praise you today and for the rest of my life and no one not even the devil can tear me away from you because nothing can ever have a hold on me like you do.



Written By: Deirdre Stokes


Daily Prompt: Homage



Our friendship is something I look forward to

the talks we share are so great and the time invested  into this friendship

is the reason it hasn’t fallen apart like the rest.

I don’t take you for granted and I care about the things that are going on with you rather they are small or large.

I have your back even when you just want to be alone and just want to do everything on your own.

I tell you to not go down the same path I went for some times I feel so hollow inside and time has not yet healed those wounds of my mistakes.

You are my fresh air when life just feels like I can’t breathe anymore, you are the strength I lean on when the world’s ugliness is just too much for me to handle.

You are my light when the darkness is all I see in my life and every where I go.

You are my antidote to the poison of this world that tries to bring me down now and then.



Written By: Deirdre Stokes




When I find

my way hopefully things will not be the same for I need to smell the fresh air and let my hair down.

I need to not worry so much about the unknown and to just feel free

I want to smile more than I seem to be frowning lately because there is so much

that seems to driving me insane and no amount of rest helps.

When I find the answers to the questions I need to know, will I understand and will I be ready for them.

I guess only time will tell but, lately it seems like I’m searching for it all and no matter how hard I try nothing seems to be that clear.

I wonder if I should just give up and just let it all come to me when the time is right  or maybe I don’t have the patience to wait that long.

Or maybe I can just trust it will all work out and just maybe it will.



Written By: Deirdre Stokes



Daily Prompt: Climbing

I’m climbing to the top and every now and then

I stumble and fall a couple of steps.

But, instead of giving up I keep going

and sometimes it feels like someone else is carrying me through it all.

Today I feel like I’ve finally reached the top and there you are with a helping hand

to pull me up to my final destination.

The hands and feet that kept me from getting this far is gone and I am so alive right now

that I can’t hold a grudge against them or be mad at all.

All I can do is smile and laugh and cry happy tears at this moment that feels so unreal right now.

So much I have gone through and at times I have let the negativity get to me and drag me down so far.

I thought and felt there was no coming back from this but, some how and some way I made it to the top.

So would think I just had a good day and my luck was up.

But, I know the truth for the hand that reached out to me that day was my lord and the hands and feet that grabbed and kicked at me was my enemies.

They couldn’t see what I saw waiting for me at the top so they did all they could to tear me down.

Yet, I climbed on with more determined than I could build up myself.

For I had to get to the top and I couldn’t just sit down here and wish one day I had the guts to do it.

I had to act now and climb with all my might and not look down or back for one foot and hand at time.

Would get me to where I’m meant to be and I can say now and later that the climb was so worth it.


Written By: Deirdre Stokes


Daily prompt: Climbing


No time to looking back

anymore for I have new hope that this will workout

for me in the end.

When the sun is shining brightly from the beginning and the peaceful feeling is washing over me today.

I know that things will look and be good for me and those around me.

I don’t have time to look back at the things I missed out on or the things in the present that are not apart of my life.

I live for the now and if you’re not apart of my present than that’s on you not me and I smile knowing that I made the best out of what I had.

And the possibilities are just starting and future holds so much for me but I’m going to focus on the present and light up everything that comes my way.

Because, this year is the battle of a lifetime and I won’t stop fighting.

Even when my hope gets low, I will just rely on my faith to carry me through it no matter what.

For I don’t have time to look back when the most important things are right in front of me.



Written By: Deirdre Stokes