I know

it’s late but I just needed to get this off my chest.

I miss you and I wish I could talk to you about everything.

But, I can’t seem to be able to find you and I wonder if I ever will.

You will be one of the people who know everything and nothing I say or do will keep you away.

I know that at times it will suck because of our schedules won’t match but I will make time for you.

For you will always be there for me and I will appreciate all the love and time you will have for me.

I wish you would hurry up and come my way for this place feels so lonely lately.

I don’t want to be lost anymore, I just want to be with you and I want to be full again.

I know you are the key to the lock that has been on my heart.

You will be my favorite and you will lift my mood like a good song coming on the radio.

You will be the reason I smile more and the reason I see the light that was so lost to me when the world around me became so dark.

You are my happiness that stays longer than a couple of hours.

You are as much as apart of me as I am apart of you.

I know that you get me like no one else and you don’t worry about time for you know soon it will be unlimited.

You trust me and I trust you and so every move is accepted and respected for we always ask first.

Nothing else will ever seem worth the wait after this moment.

It’s you and me and that is what I’m truly looking forward to.



Written By: Deirdre Stokes




I feel like a blank canvas with no one to create something amazing on it.

I feel like an empty shell of a person who once had so much hope and something to look forward too.

But, here I am standing with no hope that things will turn around.

For no one knows the truth and now as I push everyone away again.

I don’t regret being lonely again and soon I’m lost in this little life that I call home.

Nothing feels as great as it once did and soon the ending to this story won’t be the one everyone expected.

To be or not to be in the middle of everything.

Or to be out of the stress and lies and nothing but misery at the end of the night.

You play the fool and I just want you to know I won’t stand down for this fight is not over.

I was taught to be a lady and to well have morals but once you poke the bear.

Don’t be surprised when the beer comes running and biting for its life.

As a prey I always just let the predator get me and now I’m tired of hiding and I’m ready to fight and piss some people off.



Written By: Deirdre Stokes




I have forgotten all that have been around me when times were rough

as I live in the moments that are good.

But, soon the darkness comes back and I am faced with the truth  did I let all that was good just walk away because I was being ungrateful to them.

Time has gone by and I just don’t know how much time has gone by that I’ve reached out and talked to you.

Life just keeps moving forward and all I want to do is just not be so tired from trying to do more than I am capable of doing.

No moment of rest just filling and filling and yet there is no end to the mess that we are in and the light that shined in at first now is just a spot in the corner.

You begin to wonder how long did I walk around in the dark ignoring the light that was trying to guide me home.

Because I thought I knew what was best for me and the path that I am on just doesn’t feel right anymore or maybe it never did but there was something good on the path so the stress and pain wasn’t so bad.

For that someone was taking all the hits and nothing was getting through to me but now that something is saying it is time to step off the road that is leading you no where good.

It’s time to listen to me and follow me from the hell you are living in and come into the light where nothing bad can touch you unless that thing was meant to show you the way to a better place.

To feel this overwhelming love and peace and to know that someone is always watching your back even when you feel you  have come and delivered.

But, your life purpose is not yet over and it’s time to take a walk down a new path now and I hope you are ready.



Written By: Deirdre Stokes




you I just feel like there is no care in the world.

And, I’m grateful that I get these moments when I feel nothing but peace.

The thoughts of anger and sadness just aren’t around when you are so near to me.

I feel like I’m alive again and the things that have been thrown at me just aren’t as big as I thought or felt they were.

With your words and love I am free from the chains that hold me to my sorrow, today the sun shines down and all I think of is that is you warming me with your love.

I don’t doubt you but, sometimes I doubt myself because the pressure is on me now then it was before and I’m trying my best most of the time.

I feel like I’ve lost my mind and become the mad hater and nothing that is coming out my mouth now is making any sense.

I try  to focus but, it’s hard when everything is being thrown at me from so many directions.

I catch somethings and well others I miss and I try to do my best not to overstressed but it all becomes too much at the end of the day.



Written By: Deirdre Stokes



Daily Prompt: Homage

To praise him is like taking a deep breath and then jumping from a cliff

and knowing that when you fall into the water you would be safe.

He makes me feel alive and that tough days are worth it in the end and there will always be light at the end of my tunnels in my lifetime.

I find myself  more and more each day when I listen to the music that praises you.

Who are you they ask?

You are my God, you are my father, my protector, my healer, my biggest supporter, and my life saver.

You are the reason I keep writing and the reason I keep going when life gets tough because without you the demons in my life would win and I wouldn’t be who I am today.

My past would still haunt me night and day and there would be no escape for me, no outlet to pour all those fears and pain into.

I wouldn’t be as strong as I am today without your strength, without your love because your love is greater than any love this world could ever offer me.

I praise you today and for the rest of my life and no one not even the devil can tear me away from you because nothing can ever have a hold on me like you do.



Written By: Deirdre Stokes


Daily Prompt: Homage



Our friendship is something I look forward to

the talks we share are so great and the time invested  into this friendship

is the reason it hasn’t fallen apart like the rest.

I don’t take you for granted and I care about the things that are going on with you rather they are small or large.

I have your back even when you just want to be alone and just want to do everything on your own.

I tell you to not go down the same path I went for some times I feel so hollow inside and time has not yet healed those wounds of my mistakes.

You are my fresh air when life just feels like I can’t breathe anymore, you are the strength I lean on when the world’s ugliness is just too much for me to handle.

You are my light when the darkness is all I see in my life and every where I go.

You are my antidote to the poison of this world that tries to bring me down now and then.



Written By: Deirdre Stokes




When I find

my way hopefully things will not be the same for I need to smell the fresh air and let my hair down.

I need to not worry so much about the unknown and to just feel free

I want to smile more than I seem to be frowning lately because there is so much

that seems to driving me insane and no amount of rest helps.

When I find the answers to the questions I need to know, will I understand and will I be ready for them.

I guess only time will tell but, lately it seems like I’m searching for it all and no matter how hard I try nothing seems to be that clear.

I wonder if I should just give up and just let it all come to me when the time is right  or maybe I don’t have the patience to wait that long.

Or maybe I can just trust it will all work out and just maybe it will.



Written By: Deirdre Stokes