Oh Monday

Here you come again

Not saying I’m not glad to see you.

It’s just I liked sleeping in and not having to set alarm.

Yea I know I still had stuff to do but I didn’t have to worry about being on time.

I know there will be some peace and fun today but can’t I just have one more day off and see you on Tuesday.

Yes I know it doesn’t work that way and so here I come with a slight smile on my face.

But I hope you know I’m watching the clock until it’s my lunch break and then the count down to go home is strong.

 

 

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Copyright ©️ 2020 By Deirdre Stokes

So much

 Has happen and all I want to do is cry

For it is sad to see a life gone too soon.

To feel sad even though you didn’t know them you know someone else out there is hurting and so you pray for them.

And you take a moment to cherish and appreciate the people in your life that are around and that you are close too.

So much is going on that when things happen it’s like you know you should’ve slowed down and not worried so much about keeping up and just enjoyed the small things.

So maybe this will be the time to slow down and realize there is more to life then can be seen.

 

 

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Copyright ©️ 2020 By Deirdre Stokes

Before I

 Step into this place I have to take a deep breathe

And hope nothing bad comes from this visit I’m about to make.

Oh how I wish to do great things here and not for a short amount of time.

I want to do so much and not just to benefit me but everyone that I help out.

I want to feel like I have all I need at the end of my day and in those moments I hope to be happy and 100% complete and not 80% anymore.

 I want to know that this is not it and there is so much more to come of this.

That everything is brighter and hopeful and that everything will be changing for me but that nothing that truly matters will be gone when I look back on this moment.

 

 

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Copyright ©️ 2020 By Deirdre Stokes

I don’t

 Want to shut down as everything around me seems so unlikely to turnout well.

I know as I stare the fear in the face right now that I have so much grace that there is nothing that can break me.

For I refuse to do what everyone else is doing if it isn’t what’s right for me.

I know what I don’t need in my life but what’s the end game for me is still not clear.

But I have hope that things will work out for me if I keep doing what I love to do.

Sometimes I wonder how it would have been If I had made different plans.

But the truth is I’m in an good place right now and complaining and wishing gets me no where.

For action is what needs to be done now if I want things to go well now.

I know tonight will hopefully lead to tomorrow because I’m not ready for the story of me to be over before it really gets good.

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Copyright ©️ 2020 By Deirdre Stokes

No

 Complaints as the life on the other side is greener than before.

I don’t regret leaving because of the risk for the first time is worth it.

Maybe I have become stronger and so the things that used to scare me off from taking that leap.

Is now far from my mind as I make my next move.

And I know that I will be just fine as I make a move that will change me for the better.

I know that things will become more clearer as I learn so much more.

I feel the excitement running through me as the days start to add up and the count down begins.

It’s time to enjoy this moment of rest and know things will turn out as long as I have faith gods plan for me and faith that whatever happens is better than if I planned it myself.

 

 

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Copyright ©️ 2020 By Deirdre Stokes

In this

Photo by Lucas Newton on Unsplash

moment I feel like I’m fading away from what used to be my past.

As I look into what could be my future right now I’m enlightened and ready.

The peace is welcoming and I am in place where fading away from a place that never felt was right for me is okay.

I’m looking forward to being one of the good ones that will remembered once I’m gone.

But for now I will fade in and of their minds.

 

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Copyright ©️ 2020 By Deirdre Stokes

You were

 Image credit; Pixabay

 The quiet girl by day

Always polite and ready to jump in.

You knew the path you were on and you wanted to keep going.

But one day the light shined down on you well you were enjoying your darker days.

Showing you there was so much more out there if you would believe and trust in us.

 As the light faded and it became dark somethings that only the night provided showed up.

Like the stars that would guide this girl home when she would get loss.

Together she needs and sun and the moon. 

But will she continue to make the right decision and know that in the end she can have both.

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Copyright ©️ 2020 By Deirdre Stokes

What do you see# 13 1/20/2020? You see!

The water

Flows so quickly that I didn’t know if I could make it across fast enough.

And not end up falling in and still now getting to the other side.

But I took a leap of faith that I would make it and as I quickly moved across the rocks.

I just knew that things would work out and so I jumped onto land just as a big shift in the rocks was the end of my path.

And now there is no going back but that’s okay for it’s what is ahead that will lead me to the right place in the end.

 

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Copyright ©️ 2020 By Deirdre Stokes

Was I

to tired to see your true colors all this time.

You may be small but I can feel the many knifes your trying to throw my way.

No respect just  trying to take and take.

You want so much but right now it’s really just a struggle to get it all down in the end.

Things are becoming more clear as the problems that raise up are not mine anymore.

The peace even within the Storm is better than the storm that just doesn’t go away for good.

No direction and no hope inside for the one who could and should help won’t step up unless they have too and in the end it all comes down to the same results.

You want to complain about the ones who came before you because you think so highly of yourself but at the end of the day we carry you not the other way around.

When the mess hits the fan it is mostly because of you and you then fight back as if you have the right too.

This circle will come to an end and right now I don’t care to watch the show for I know how it ends.

 

 

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Copyright ©️ 2020 By Deirdre Stokes