I always knew that I wasn’t afraid of what life had to offer me at a young age.
I knew that as long as I believed I could do than it was possible and would come true and I would grow up being just who I knew I would be.
But, then came teenage years and then young adult years and then adult hood and I knew that everything I thought I would be would be not likely.
But, still possible but doubt from all the nasty words that were thrown at me at a young age made me question everything.
And even now as I sit here wondering what to do next and hope that maybe it will still work out in the end.
Kind of feels like I’m wasting my time on words and hope that may not happen because well I just don’t have the time.
For I work to pay the bills not to live out my passion and even though I work hard lately I realize it’s not worth it.
So many reasons that even if you get what you want the demons in your life can rob you of that happiness.
I know what makes me happy and I know that even though I’m helping at the end of the day I feel used and abused and the happy moments don’t out weigh the nasty/ugly moments.
Written By: Deirdre Stokes