there and just take it all in as your words wash down me like water
I’m frozen in time as each word echo’s in my ear.
With no end to the words that end everything that felt right to me
I thought finally things were looking up for me and then it was all gone.
I felt the jolt of energy just leave me as the energy I had that day just drain
from me as my spirit broke into a million pieces and then came my heart.
And not long after all that I completely fell apart.
The sound out of me sounded like a wounded animal begging for help and no one
ever came to help me.
So all alone I stood after you took all I had taken away from me just by your words:
“I hate you”, and I never loved you. But I loved how much you ate up everything that came out of my mind”.
Then you laughed because you had tricked me into getting close to you just to turn around and tell me how you really felt.
You always hated me for being me and not caring about the shit others threw at me but for you it was like winning the biggest award.
Hurting me was a game you risked it all just to make sure I was left picking up everything.
For you never believed in romance and love and to make me believe everything you did and said.
Was amazing and for you at the end of the night you slept like a baby, as I tossed and turned and lost apart of me that day.
It would take a while for me to gain my strength back and just as long to trust and love someone again.
Written By: Deirdre Stokes