don’t want to lose myself in you but as I stand here in this doorway
I don’t want to be alone anymore and I don’t want to waste anymore time when it comes to you.
I know that the timing can’t be the best but I’ve just don’t want to think about it anymore, because I’m not afraid anymore.
I just want to risk it all and stand in front of you as the only person that won’t leave you when it gets tough and to not turn on you when your being a real jerk.
I want to let all my words wash over you and save you and see the man I know you can be and for you to walk with your head up high and be a real badass for you know who you are and what you are capable of doing.
I don’t you to doubt yourself for one more second, for I know that your good with a lot of darkness but it doesn’t make you less worthy of the love I’m willing to offer you now and forever.
But, only time will tell if I will wake up and get off my feet and go to you and tell you the truth because over time these feelings go away when I push them down only for them to come back stronger than before.
I don’t know what more I can do to stay away, when it’s just making me miserable and tired as I run myself in circles about what if this turns out great.
Or what if this ruins everything or it changes nothing and then what do I do with these feelings on my own.
Written By: Deirdre Stokes