I faded away from your life and I wonder if you even noticed.
I was gone or did you wait until you saw an old photo with my face on it and then you remembered who I was.
I stopped wonder what you would miss the most when I’m gone.
Probably long before you remembered my name and anything else about me.
I faded and so did the memories.
Written By: Deirdre Stokes
With you right now, I’m annoyed and just over it.
Words can no longer express how I feel for no amount of words can fully describe how your acting.
The anger build up inside me and it’s not just for me but for others that you have burned.
I feel like I want to protect them and not let you harm them with your words.
But, something inside me stops me from saying the words I need to say to break you down a couple of steps.
I have never known someone to be so nasty before.
Your words are toxin and your heart is blacker than coal.
Nothing you do or say proves to me that you care enough to stop.
You just pretend like a child that you have done no wrong and should be forgiven.
But, honey I can forgive but I will not forget and if I wasn’t the person I am in today.
I would have told you off by now and let it be done for you will never have my trust or respect.
This world needs love and not your ugly hater to continue to grow.
I am fighting for the good and trying to stop all the wrong and the ugly in life.
I have grew up and have put away my childish ways, when will you do the same?
Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Your pungent comment sliced through me like a sharp knife.
The open wound was so painful as I felt the shock overwhelm me.
I couldn’t believe the words coming out your mouth.
So hurtful and so not true.
And on that day I saw you for what you were, a monster in plain sight.
Not afraid to be so cruel.
It finally happened, I broke into so many pieces that no one knew if I would be able to be put back together again.
I didn’t want to feel at all this way but there comes a time when you truly have to let go.
And fall so far that the anticipation of the fall is relaxing.
I fall with my eyes closed enjoying the fall as my body slows down.
The moment before I broke reappears in front of my face and I cry a little.
But, smile when the feeling of peace washes over me.
Like a blanket of protection, I felt loved and then I hit the floor with the biggest break of my life.
And I never could come back to who I was before.
Written By:Deirdre Stokes
To me eat at my soul
day and night to the point
I don’t know what to say to you.
And I know the moments I look at you,
My eyes no longer reflect happiness, just sadness and when I’m about to say something.
Just one look from you shuts me down and my walls go up again and I’m no longer see the person I once thought I knew.
Written By: Deirdre Stokes
I’m sated with the chooses I have made in life today.
So many trials I went through just to live now with so much hope, belief and faith.
To let God handle it all and for first time not have a moment of doubt.
It will all work out and if it doesn’t who cares, I’m too strong now to let failure break me down.
I am worthy and successful no matter where I end up.
Today could be my greatest day but only if I accept that the impossible can come true and if I fall.
I can always get up and build myself up again until I’m 100% sure I can do this.
I am sated and I will not turn back for nothing.
Written By: Deirdre Stokes
The chaos begins soon with all the sales start
people all over the place.
Cars speeding down the road trying to get to the stores early.
People all over the place trying to find their ways and hoping they can get the best deals of the year.
No time to be confused or lost cause one wrong move and you lose it all.
But, some have become pro’s at the land of great deals.
No worrying about losing time with their family, for their all in the game to win.
Written By: Deirdre Stokes
