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I don’t

Artist: Unknown

Think you truly see me

With so much going on around me.

I wonder if I’m interesting enough for you

Or are there so much more beautiful things around that you don’t notice me right away.

But I’m here when your ready to look for me.

I will be the girl hiding behind the mountains we call life.

And hoping the waves don’t knock me off as I try to get my footing in this new challenge I’m facing now.

Oh how I wish I had all the answers before that door closes and you walk away before I can.

Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Copyright ©️ 2020 By Deirdre Stokes

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I’ve fought

It all and now when I want to stay.

You push me away

And the urge to run away is so strong.

But somehow I am still here but the long days are taking a toll on me.

I don’t know if I can push through this, this time because it’s not as easy as it was before.

Maybe I’ve fought to hard last time that my body just doesn’t know how to regain the strength I need.

And so I sit here staring out this window and wondering what now.

Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Copyright ©️ 2020 By Deirdre Stokes

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As I

Unknown artist

Float through life lately I feel some pieces of me falling away

Like leaves from a tree when fall has finally arrived.

But that season has yet to come as spring slowly fades away and summer comes in.

From cold to warm to hot everything in my mind seems to go from thawed out to frozen to melting away.

Nothing seems as clear as before all of this and in a way I feel I found my voice again.

No longer sitting around waiting for inspiration but it showing up and taking control.

Maybe this change is what I’ve been waiting for and should embrace it and accept the pieces of me that have been left behind.

Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Copyright ©️ 2020 By Deirdre Stokes

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I want to

Say I choose you always

But that would be a lie.

For I allow myself to get lost in things to avoid other things.

But it always catches up with me and so truly enjoying things are well not so much lately.

As my body betrays me and I lay awake trying everything to just fade back into a dream or into nothing.

But the minute I close my eyes they are opening again only to discover time has yet to move.

I want things to be a little different right now but it is what it is.

For I have no control over anything right now and I’m not sure how to feel about that.

Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Copyright ©️ 2020 By Deirdre Stokes

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I know

My focus has shifted when

I felt I had gain something more.

But yet again earthly things distract me from what you need me to do lord.

And I am here to gain control back because everything else seem so temporary.

And I’m looking for things that will last way past the decades to come and to land in the right place.

For I know what I am to do is more than what is happening now.

So even though I focus on somethings around me I’m else looking for more meaning in what I can do in the time given to me.

Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Copyright ©️ 2020 By Deirdre Stokes

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Was the one

Who wanted sleep

But now only getting hours here and there.

Falling asleep through out the day as mornings are spent tossing and turning.

So restless and feeling so hopeless with no hope insight as this is the third morning in a row.

Laying awake turning to close my eyes so hard in hope that will convince myself to fall back to sleep.

But here I am still up since waking up a little after 3am.

Tried reading and praying and yet here I am still up as a part of me begs for sleep.

Yet no relief insight as the morning comes and my responsibilities start to pile up and all I want to do is go back to sleep.

Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Copyright ©️ 2020 By Deirdre Stokes